LAUGH.

2011-03-27T03:36:00.000-07:00

I've made a move! :D To tumblr. But I don't do anything besides reblogging, so it's quite pointless. Tata! Take care, always!

mixed emotions

2010-04-17T02:18:00.000-07:00

Last Sports' Day.
In SMK Seafield.
Or maybe in my WHOLE LIFE.

So how do I feel?
I don't know, actually.

This Sports' Day was a 'first' of all sorts for me :
My first time..
-marching
-marching then running
-worried about not getting a medal in sports
-coming to Sports' Day not expecting to get a medal
-doing sports since I quit sports completely
-running 4x100m not expecting the gold medal(in fact, I didn't expect a medal at all)
-running 4x400m.. um... without preparation :)

My first time..
-feeling good on winning the silver( for 4by100m! I was like : YAYAYAYAYAY! cos I thought we were going to come in 4th! I know its not very nice of me to post this sort of thing here, but.. super happeeeeeeee!!! Thanks Azri for lending me your spikes :) -----
-running with spike shoes on sports day! Yay!
-spending half the time with Lee Yuin on Sports Day <> :P

My list of 'firsts' shall be updated when I think of more stuff. (Which'll most probably be really wu liao things)

And now, I don't know what to do.
I wonder how those people continue training (running) after they've passed a certain age.

For instance, throughout my schooling years, it always has been :
"Training? For what?"
"Sports Day lor."

"Training? For what?"
"Gymrama lor."

"Training? For what?"
"Next year's Sports Day lor." <<< Not true for this year.Hehe.

So now I'm like:
Go running? For what?

If go to college, do colleges have Sports Days? Hmm.

I think I sound like somebody who runs just for the sake of winning.
Gosh. Something's wrong with me.

Hee.

I know!!!! I've just figured it out as I was typing the line above. I mean, the line above 'Hee.'.

I wanna train for my future children! Or something like that.
Then they can go to school and show off that their mum can run. HOHOHO.

But, seriously. How? I don't get it.
Does the whole running thing work like gymrama? As in you run because you have a passion for it?
Or perhaps having a passion for running away from discipline teachers?

Oh dear. I sound like a confused person, don't I?
Well, because I am, actually.

People, please advise on this mind-boggling matter!!
I want to run,
but -

Beat.

Thank you God for granting me my prayers.
Oh. *sheepish smile*
I need to go CF this week.
Cos I promised myself (when I was trying to boost my confidence) that I would go for CF if I returned from Sports Day with a medal.
And I did.
Plus I'll be receiving something on Prize-giving Day.
Conclusion: Beatrice is attending CF this Friday.
but only staying for P&W okiee :) choir needs me. hahaha :)

this is an extremely weird post.eww. :)

House Practice. Secretary.

2010-04-03T05:19:00.000-07:00

Okay.
The thing is, I always thought that house practice was from 5.00 to 6.30.
That's why i thought I could go from tuition, which ends at 5, to practice.

I found out yesterday that it actually starts at 4.30. To 6.00.
What the crap????!!!!

I would never have taken the job if ONLY I knew this earlier as there is NO WAY i can make it by 4.30.

But funny thing is, nobodyactually mentioned the time.. So I never realised.

And never realised why I was always 'late'.
I thought I was on time, since I come out a bit earlier from tuition.
But.. arggggh. I never knew that I have always been half an hour late. GOSSSSSHHHHH.

And I just realised that the drafts for the minutes up to before the holidays were in the com. And I conveniently forgot about them. Until yesterday, after being scolded.

I'm sorry, I really am.

But 'sorry no cure'.

It's my last year in this school. I'm turning 17 soon.

And I'm still screwing up things that aren't supposed to be screwed up.

I am irresponsible. I am.

God, please. Help me.

Happy Easter.

2010-03-15T21:23:00.000-07:00

Fireman camp.

I've learnt things that I never would have learnt had I not attended it.

I went, got myself inspired by the little details throughout the camp. The finer side of things, the kind of sights you may see everyday but never stop to realise, to wonder, to ponder.

Nope, I'm not speaking of stamping our feet to the chants of "Satu *turn* Satu Dua!" nor shouting "Coupling!" or even learning what nasi lemak can mean, other than our beloved Malaysian trademark.

It might be, perhaps, a lesson solely for me. Something I really needed; something that doesn't come along daily. An awakening of all sorts.

I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. - Phillipians 4:13

Sometimes you may not realise it, but the next kick is all it takes for you to soar the skies.

-Beatwantstogoforcfcampbutsincesheisntshesgonnamakethemostoutofitandcontinuekeepingthefaiththatitisforthebest

2010-03-15T21:21:00.000-07:00

sometimes when everything is going haywire,
all you need to do is shutdown and restart.

blooming blossoms

2010-01-17T05:46:00.003-08:00

Random facts of 2010. (so far)

I spent my new year sleeping.

I sit next to lee yuin in class.

I love to eat long beans.

I miss Sue Mun.

Bomba is fun. And full of mosquitoes.

I hate lizards that have been flattened.

St Nicholas Girls School Sec 1 girls are going to be tested on the entire 205 pages of Chinese Cinderella on Tuesday.

I leave rubbish in my desk.

I wanna run, I wanna run , I wanna run!

Hannah Montana the Movie was not bad.

Yvonne has a cute smile. (Right, Choong Hou? :D )

The current prefectorial grapevine is that KP likes SCP.

Emily is too cute for words.

Jun Yi talks a lot.

Satish is Jenar's cousin.

I wasn't invited to Nick's party.

I'm eating green tea Kit Kat from Japan.(the Kit Kat, not the eating)

Ken is officially branded as pembelot 5A.

I miss 4B.
(I was from 4A.)

The person I say the most number of 'shut-up's to is Diane.

My room is messy.

c'est le ton qui fait la musique.

Hey, that fluffy thing is cool.

Joanne would get along well with Alex.

I don't know how to solve a Rubik's.

I sing the most out-of-tune songs in class.

I'm looking forward to school tmr.

Hoping that someone would read this and tell me something random about myself.

My sister is awesome.
My Mum is awesome.
My Dad is awesome.
Many character traits generally run in the family so..
I AM AWESOME!

You know your English is deteriorating when you refer to a 12-year-old's essay for ideas.

Harry Potter soundtrack is freaky.

Have you seen a really old and tattered Bible?
I have one at home.

I visit Ken's blog although it's empty.

It is now 10.30.

I might miss Merentas Desa.

Universal Studios, Singapore, here I come!

I miss Nina Yap Yin Sim.
And Esther Lim Yen Phern.
And Carmen Ng Jia Wen.

I'm beginning to like 'solid' food.

Trying is NEVER enough. You've GOT TO.

Nadia Comaneci is hot.

Anu is really nice, people!

Australia is a great place to be.

After SPM, Previn and Choong Hou are going to cycle to Johor Bahru and kayak to Singapore.

I'm going to borrow a pair of spikes from a guy on Sports Day. If I'm running.
(Spikes, because I ain't burning my toes no more. A guy, because I acn't fit into girls' spikes.)

I'm buying the Add Math workbook tomorrow.

My handphone has been with me since Form 1.

Bloggers' English have improved. At least, the ones I know.

r = common ratio

I really good at this, huh?

Mrs Khaw has retired. And I haven't been to see her.

People who read my blog don't comment in the cbox. I feel unloved.
:(
*SOB*

Ping pong balls are orange hollow balls that bounce with a 'tick'.

i don't know nuts about IT, except for the fact that I don't know nuts about it.

Surrounded by crazy singing choir people. I like. Me feel loved.

My calculator battery is running out. I thought I had to buy a new calculator.

I liked Boys Over Flowers.

I want to throw a ribbon during perbarisan.

I don't get Facebook.

I feel bad cos' I didn't put all my kawan baiks names in here.

The early bird catches the worm.

English Literature classes are fun and serious.

Roshni is like a little bubbly bubble.

Bubbles are bubbly.

I want to stay in class, but keep on getting called out.

The 3rd week of school is yet to start, I already have teachers who are mad at me.
And it wasn't even my fault! grrr.

The standing lamp has a really bad slouch.

I used to love Simple Plan, due to Evelyn's influence.

I have completed Pn Ho's homework, partially.
I used 6 pages.

I had a small book to jot down ideas back in Form 2. I don't anymore. I guess they just dwindled out.

I shall not blog.

blooming blossoms

2010-01-17T05:46:00.002-08:00

blooming blossoms

2010-01-17T05:46:00.001-08:00

2009-12-03T06:50:00.000-08:00

"A son and his father were walking on the mountains.

Suddenly, his son falls, hurts himself and screams: "AAAhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

"To his surprise, he hears the voice repeating, somewhere in the mountain: "AAAhhhhhhhhhhh!!!"

Curious, he yells: "Who are you?"

He receives the answer: "Who are you?"

And then he screams to the mountain: "I admire you!"

The voice answers: "I admire you!"

Angered at the response, he screams: "Coward!"

He receives the answer: "Coward!"

He looks to his father and asks: "What's going on?"

The father smiles and says: "My son, pay attention."

Again the man screams: "You are a champion!"

The voice answers: "You are a champion!"

The boy is surprised, but does not understand.

Then the father explains: "People call this ECHO, but really this is LIFE.

It gives you back everything you say or do.

Our life is simply a reflection of our actions.

If you want more love in the world, create more love in your heart.

If you want more competence in your team, improve your competence.

This relationship applies to everything, in all aspects of life;

Life will give you back everything you have given to it."

YOUR LIFE IS NOT A COINCIDENCE. IT'S A REFLECTION OF YOU!"-- Unknown Author

just something i found :)

2009-11-28T20:41:00.000-08:00

My Ex-Best Friend
by Celestie Vaughn

we were always together
me and you
joined at the hips
like siamese twins
you always saved a seat for me
you always gave me a share of what you had
you always helped me out with whatever problems i faced
and i did the same towards you too
you were once my sole confidante

my sister
whom i told everything

but soon
i slowly realised
you never told me anything
anything at all
you never shared with me
who you liked
who you thought was cool and who was not
who you thought
sang the best songs
you only told me
others' views
not your own

i found out
who you were crushing on
through your sibling
i still can
imagine her shock
*you're-her-best-friend-and-you-don't-know?!*
i still can imagine
the disappointment
that was clearly etched onto my face
feeling of being trusted
and loved
and appreciated
by a best friend
i never got to experience that

you used to shout to me
once you saw me
acknowledging my presence
your whole face lighting up
with the widest grin in the world

then
one day
i walked into class
late,as usual
and for once
i didn't have anywhere to sit
because you were with somebody else
someone who meant more to you
than i did
i asked you
whether the seat on the other side of your friend
was empty

but,no
it wasn't
because it was saved
for somebody
who was of greater importance to you
it was as if
an invisible hand
had entered the window
and grabbed hold of my heart
ceasing the function of every system in my body

after that
you don't even pretend to see me
you just walk straight pass me
like i'm part of the wall
an invisible being
whom nobody cares for
like the kind of boring flyer
that you would just carelessly toss aside
without a single glance

now
i know
that i never meant as much to you
as much as you did to me

alas
the trace of the bond
which held us together
fades away into nothingness

nobody who see us now
would even know
we were
the best of pals
the last faint trace
is there no longer

to the world
we are just
merely
acquaintances.

*******

just something i found.

i thought it'd be pretty heart-wrenching if that happened to me.

what do you think of it?

god bless!

which would you choose? which would you feed?

2009-08-30T02:54:00.000-07:00

THE TWO WOLVES

A Native American grandfather was talking to his grandson about how he felt. He said, "I feel as if I have two wolves fighting in my heart. One wolf is the vengeful, angry, violent one. The other wolf is the loving, compassionate one." The grandson asked him, "Which wolf will win the fight in your heart?" The grandfather answered: "The one I feed."

2009-08-30T02:04:00.000-07:00

The international food shortage

Recently, a worldwide survey was conducted and the only question asked was: "Would you please give your honest opinion about the solution to the food shortage in the rest of the world?"

The survey was, not surprisingly, a huge failure. Because:
In Africa they didn't know what "food" meant.

In Eastern Europe they didn't know what "honest" meant.

In Western Europe they didn't know what "shortage" meant.

In China they didn't know what "opinion" meant.

In the Middle East they didn't know what "solution" meant.

In South America they didn't know what "please" meant.

And, in the USA they didn't know what "the rest of the world" meant.

*grins*

And now for the reaaal deal :D : hope you enjoy what i found.

Chopsticks.

A woman who had worked all her life to bring about good was granted one wish: "Before I die let me visit both hell and heaven." Her wish was granted.

She was whisked off to a great banqueting hall. The tables were piled high with delicious food and drink. Around the tables sat miserable, starving people as wretched as could be.

"Why are they like this?" she asked the angel who accompanied her. "Look at their arms," the angel replied. She looked and saw that attached to the people's arms were long chopsticks secured above the elbow.
Unable to bend their elbows, the people aimed the chopsticks at the food, missed every time and sat hungry, frustrated and miserable. "Indeed this is hell! Take me away from here!"

She was then whisked off to heaven.
Again she found herself in a great banqueting hall with tables piled high. Around the tables sat people laughing, contented, joyful.

"No chopsticks I suppose," she said.
"Oh yes there are. Look - just as in hell they are long and attached above the elbow but look... here people have learnt to feed one another".

Godblessyou:D

Bear with me, watch this.

2009-08-29T08:17:00.000-07:00

PLEASE
PLEASE
PLEASE

CLICK ON THE FOLLOWING LINK.

YOU MIGHT EVEN CRY! :D

NOPE, NOTHING SCARY, DON'T WORRY OTHERWISE I WON'T EVEN BE LOOKING.

BUT PLEASE, I THINK IT'S NOTHING SHORT OF INSPIRATIONAL.
:D

2009-08-25T08:14:00.000-07:00

heeheee. (:

you know i love you.

well, even if i don't, God does :D

even if you're thinking of the most horrible thing to do, the nastiest thing to do,

God still loves you!
because...

God loves us, forever! :D

the end or the beginning?

2009-08-21T07:53:00.000-07:00

"... Not in this set-up, this environment, this time..."

After all that has been said and done,
after decisions have been made,
after feelings have been expressed,

I really have nothing to say.

If my heart were a bucket it'd be full with different colour,
each symbolising a different feeling, a different perspective.

I don't know if this teacher'll ever read this, but thank you.
For the 3Ps and 2Rs I'm going to face in my life, I'll always remember that you were there to prevent me from going .... somewhere else.

But

It's so hard, teacher.
After you said it, I was quite.. pumped up :D I thought it's be rather.. simple? Well, not THAT hard..
But once I began talking to others, seeing things happening,
it's just so tough, so, so tough.

It's so hard to respond.

Sorry.

But I'll try. I'll conquer it.

Watch me.

A friend sent this to me:
"...continue seeking for God's guidance and rmb to put Him above all :D..."

Thanks, Em.

I also realised that I have lost a friendship, or rather goodfriend-ship.
But I have gained others.
Maybe you, maybe not.
Thanks

leeyuinemilyrushandiane

You guys rock.

DUH.

:D

Lastly, go for CF makan tmr! Don't know whether I can go, sorry Cf orangs! :D
oh pfft. Just thought of a reason why I shouldn't go.
But exaactly for that reason I should go :D

See you there!

Quote Tzi Ying:
God loves us, forever!

Thanks for forever embedding that line in my mind :)

Thanks everybody!

Quote a wonderful teacher:
".......be the best in whatever position you are, be it the leader, the sub-leader, the department leader or even just the follower, be the best in whatever position you are..."

Quote Pn Joyce:
".......In this case, that's the right line to say........"

Thank you God for bringing all these wonderful people into my life!

the following tale is of utmost high importance!

2009-06-18T05:30:00.000-07:00

Importance: High

While a man was polishing his new car, his 4 yr old son picked a stone & scratched lines on the side of the car.

In anger, the man took the child's hand & hit it many times, not realizing he was using an iron wrench.

At the hospital, the child lost all his fingers due to multiple fractures.

When the child saw his father.... with painful eyes he asked: 'Dad when will my fingers grow back?'

The man was very hurt and speechless, he went back to car and kicked it a lot of times.

Devastated by his own actions, sitting in front of that car, he looked at the scratches .

The child had written 'LOVE YOU DAD'.

The next day that man committed suicide.

Anger and Love have NO LIMIT - choose the latter to have a beautiful lovely life.
THINGS are meant to be USED and PEOPLE are to be LOVED..

but the problem of today's world is that...

People are used. & Things are loved.

So, dear one. Choose wisely.

God bless you, forever and always!

the last day of PMR 08' (super outdated sial) the day my camera got abused .

2009-06-13T07:33:00.000-07:00

it was the last day of PMR.

the afternoon of our #1 evil scheme.

(though now it won't be called that lah)

(heh. super inside joke.)

(so many people seem to be posting this:'inside joke.', so I'm doing it too.)

(Waaaaaa.)

After bathing:

lepas mandi

You are about to witness the abuse of my lovely sexy camera.
You have been warned.
*Lynnie don't kill me*

abuse of my beautiful camera

And now...

gah. Miss Chia has great and amazing potential.....

at taking horrible photos.

example as shown below:

then we went to Pyramid:

F.O.S.

Perfecto example of her cute little round 'ss' face.
(Go ahead, look at what shape her face is)
And the super cute cross earrings.

....it's a circular face.
hah.
:)

Me , my dulan face(as jo would put it)
and the scary looking cross earrings.

I'm holding hands with a dummy.
whaddacrapp.

She's posing with her dummy friends.
*teeheehee*

Next,of all places, we were in....

...Popular.(or was it MPH?)

(hold it hold it hold it.)

(MPH.)

in which we saw this:

(lynnie forced me to take a picture of them kayy)

and now the lady herself:

she didn't want to be the only one 'ss-ing', so I kena pulak.

NEXT!

I think this was in Living Cabin or something like that.

(they sell fake fruits here, justin)

heh. inside joke.

i loveeee typing that line.

*dulan face*

Glass-I mean- plastic boots for sale!

First she saw yellow:

I kena again:

Then I saw pink.

I kena again:

cos' she wanted to take as well.

*super dulan face*

...but she's so cute, who can resist taking more?

*sighs*

*poor camera*

*oh miss chiaaa don't kill meeeeeee*

To 'bodek' her out of killing me, I resort to this:

YES, YOU!
Yes, I do :)

Next, as we all know,

Everyday is Mother's Day!

So this is to our mommies,

love from us!
I know I look sucky okay

'specially next to the model-ballerina-dancer-choreographer Miss Chia.

Don't say a word :)

*grins*

And 'cos we're on a low budget,

we head to Juscooooo.

We hated the neon coloured one.(refer pictures below)

She ripped the neon one off her body

(wow, what an image)

right after she tried it on

cos' she claimed she looked horrible in it.

Tak sempat take photo .

But I was like "Aiyaa, who cares man?"

haha kawan best konon :D

I wore her 'leftover' and took picture in it anyway.

ahh! abuse! :)

smoking hot ladyyy

then I returned with a white one, so yeah :)

I know I'm both fat and flat,

just keep it low okayy.

shhhh....

This was super spontaneous:

I didn't even realise this was taken:

....But all I know is that it further affirms the fact

that Lynnie has great potential to take horrible pictures. hohoho :)

And last but not least, the last few pictures of the day..

We terpaksa balik like at 5pm cos' Lynnie ade ballet :)

This post is dedicated to Miss Chia Yune-Lyn(since I owe her a birthday post from last year :))

My smashingly sexaayy and hottt Lynnie

(you can't see much of her 'hot' bits here, but take my word for it) :D

For all the times we spent together , (and didn't)

Here's to hoping that we'll spend more time in each other's presence!

(this sounds weird, but oh well!)

here's to our next evil plan!

I should blog more.

It's very... soothing.

Calming.

Relaxing.

Makes me happy :)

Loves & God bless.

"The Lord be with you!"

-Boaz from Ruth 2:4

Yes, yes indeed.

2009-06-12T22:47:00.000-07:00

this is quite cool :)

Yesterday is history.

Tomorrow is mystery.

Today is a gift.

That's why it's called the present.

woohoo :)

only time will tell.

and God.

peace out.

Triple Filter Test

2009-06-12T22:34:00.000-07:00

In ancient Greece, Socrates was reputed to hold knowledge in high esteem. One day an acquaintance met the great philosopher and said,

"Socrates, do you know what I just heard about your friend?"

"Hold on a minute,"Socrates replied. "Before telling me anything I'd like you to pass a little test.
It's called the Triple Filter Test."

"Triple Filter?"

"That's right,"Socrates continued. "Before you talk to me about my friend, it might be a good idea to take a moment and filter what you're going to say.

The first filter is Truth. Have you made absolutely sure that what you are about to tell me is absolutely true?"

"No," the man said, "actually I just heard about it and...."

"All right," said Socrates. "So you don't really know if it's true or not. Now let's try the second filter, the filter of Goodness. Is what you are about to tell me about my friend something good?"

"No, on the contrary..."

"So," Socrates continued," you want to tell me something bad about him, but you're not certain it's true. You may still pass the test though, because there is still one filter left : the filter of Usefulness. Is that what you want to tell me about my friend useful to me?"

"No, not really."

"Well," concluded Socrates, "if what you want to tell me is neither true nor good nor even useful, why tell it to me at all?"

100 truths, tagged by dear mandaaaaa :)

2009-06-05T21:18:00.000-07:00

Here it goes....
001. Real Name: Beatrice Low Wei Jin
002. Nickname(s): Beat, Rice, Beat-rice, Pukul beras, pukul nasi, dafan, PB
003. Age: 15+
004. Horoscope: Sagittarius
005. Gender: Female
006. Elementary: Ringrose Kindergarten
007. Primary School: SK Subang Jaya
008. Secondary School: Seafield :D
009. College: Too young
010. Hair Color: Black and Brown :P
011. Hair Length: quite long
012. Loud or Quiet: Depends
013. Sweats or Jeans : Jeans
014. Phone or Camera: Both :P
015. Health Freak: Sometimes
016. Drink or Smoke: Nope
017. Do you have a crush on someone: Think so
018. Eat or Drink: Eat and drink XD
019. Piercings: Ears
020. Tattoos: None
021. Social or Anti-Social: No idea :P
022. Righty or lefty: Righty
023. First piercing: 5+, on ears
024. First relationship: hah. xD
025. First Best Friend: Saw Mei Yi
026. First Award: Ballet Lower Primary Honours XD
027. First Kiss: Nope
028. First Pet: Fish?
029. First Big Vacation: err.to Malaysia when i was two.
030. First Love at first sight: Don't think so
031. First Big Birthday: long time ago in London
032. First Surgery : No
033. First sport you joined: Ballet
034. Orange or Apple juice: Mango!
035. Rock or Rap: Depends
036. Country or Screamo: Country.du-uh.
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: Backstreet boys.
038. Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera: Britney Spears
039. Night or Day: Day
040. Sun or Moon: i donno :D
041. TV or Internet: Both :P
042. Playstation or XboX: Playstation
043. Kiss or hug: Hug
044. Iguana or turtle: Turtle
045. Spider or bee: Neither!
046. Fall or spring: Fall
047. Limewire or iTunes: Don't use either one =='
048. Soccer or baseball: Soccer
049. Eating: Anything goooooood:D
050. Drinking: Anything gooooooood :D preferably mango.
051. Excitement level: Normal.I think.
052. I'm about to: Pee :)
053. Listening to: nothing......
054. Plan for today: BK class
055. Waiting for: My tun to be the freaking slimmest :P
056. Energy Level: Normal.I think
057. Thinking of someone: Guess so.
058. Want kids : Yeah.
059. Want to get married: Think so.
060. When: When the time comes lah
061. How many kids do you want: 1 or 2 or 4
062. Any name on the mind: Not yet
* 063 & 064 is missing *(because it was stated on da's blog, so yeah)
065. Mellow future or wild: Er..don't know :P
066. Something you would never try: Something that will destroy my life

067. Which is the better in the boy/girl you like(in the future):
068. Lips or Eyes: Eyes
069. Romantic or Funny : Both.
070. Shorter or Taller: Taller.
071. Protective or Caring?: Both.
072. Romantic or Spontaneous: Romantic.
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms: Both.
074. Sensitive or Loud: Both
075. Hook-up or Relationship: err?
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant: Hesitant.
077. Muscular or normal: Normal.

078. Kissed a stranger: No way.
079. Broken a bone: Nope.
080. Lost glasses or contacts: Yes.
081. Ran away from home: Nahh.
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense: Both XD
083. Killed somebody: No!
084. Broken some one's heart: err.i guess.
085. Had your heart broken: not exactly, but yeah.
086. Been arrested: So far nope :P
087. Cried when someone died: Yeah.
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: Yeah :D
089. Do you believe in Yourself: i would like to believe so.
090. Miracles: Yes, because Jesus is always there :D
* 091 is missing * (once again, because it was missing from da's post)
092. Heaven: Yes.
093. When do you want to die: When the time comes :P
094. Tooth Fairy: Nope.
095. Kiss on the first date: Nope.
096. Angels: Yeah.
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now?: yup
098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now: Kinda.
099. Do you believe in God: Duh.
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people.

Chai Shing Yin
Chew Sue Mun
Chia Yune-Lyn
Emily Chan Sze Yin
Fong Zhen Ying
Kenneth Wong
Lim Wei Qi, Callie
Seng Yee Leng
Sim Ee Huei, Diane
Voon Li Teng

Hohoho:) alphabetical order XD

lastly....

happy belated 16th birthday yuva! (aka annei) :)

happy 17th birthday edward goh!

happy beearliered birthday fong zhen ying!

happy beearliered birthday shaun chien!

lazy to type di.

nxt person who reads this better post something in the cbox

otherwise, for the kazillionth time, i'll be tempted to delete this blog XD

p.s.

i WILL conquer it.

2009-06-02T03:50:00.000-07:00

Regret?

2009-05-26T05:23:00.000-07:00

"Aieeek! Too hot-lah. Wait on the grass first-lah," I thought.

My mind flashedback to 3 years ago - when we were all little first formers. I recalled being right at the same spot - 3rd runner, as always - thinking along the exact same lines.I remember going down to the track at 10 something every sports day to check my lane for any sharp objects. We always ran about 15 minutes later, about 10.15. The latest would certainly be about 10.30 or 10.40, when the Sun could barely lick our skin. Definitely. It would never ever be later than that. The tracks definitely won't be hot. Definitely. No doubt about that. Got that?

"Lorong 4! Lorong 4 mana?"

"Sini, cikgu!" I replied jovially.
Wow, the track's REALLY hot.

"Cepat-lah masuk trek.. dah nak mula ni...!" Cikgu Musawir's 'merajuk' voice came from behind me.

"Panas-lah, cikgu!"

"Apa ni.. panas panas.. cikgu pun panas lah..!"

then..

"BANG!!!"

The gun-shot. The start of a race.

I hurried into my lane. Gosh, this is waaaaay hotter than when we were in Form 1. It was the first time I was running in my first year in a new school.. and I frequently revisited the memory of the adrenaline rush that raced through my blood from the second the baton entered my grip till it left my hand for the finish line.

Hmm.. I wonder whether we will do as well as the previous years?
Perhaps not.
Will we win?
Can we win?

My eyes were focused on Yune-Lyn.

At that moment, as I saw her long legs racing round the first bend, I felt instant admiration. This was the girl who said she couldn't sprint. This was the girl who we begged to join the relay to help us, beacuse there was no one else we could depend on. We knew she could do it, but apparently she didn't think so. And once she was registered as part of the team, she went to ask for help - from her pet brother, to our house captain, to almost every sprinter she knew. And while yours truly was dancing away at gymrama training, here she was, right here in MPSJ, 'learning' how to sprint, although she already could. If that isn't admirable enough, I don't know what is.

She was running, for the first time in her life, in a sprinting event - and here she was, leading the way.

Then it was Liesl's turn to shine.

Liesl, the funkeyh monkeyh, who injured her (was it?) tailbone when we were back in Form 1. Injury, after injury... Form 2 as well... She could run, but she still couldn't run run. Then Form 3, - at last. The first runner who lead us off to an explosive start last year. It was as if she was never injured. And this supermonkey injured (or was it a pull?) her thigh muscle which was aggravated by her participation in long jump. Liesl wasn't even sure whether she was able to sprint on the sports day, which, by a twist of blessing, she was able to. Yes, indeed, God is awesome.

She was leading - all the way - and then it was my turn to perform. It was up to what I did whether the Red shirt emerge victorious around the third and fourth bend.

The tracks were hot. Real hot.

"UP!"
I started running.

"Pap!"
The baton was in my hand, it was up to me what I did with it.

So I ran.

I ran like I had never run before - and I could tell that I wasn't slowing down at all, unlike the previous years when I could practically feel my energy leaving me.

The shouts, the yells of my hooligan-friends, so many audible voices, so many familiar voices that I even as I ran, I could tell who was shouting and from where. So, so many -

"This track is really hot!" My mind was yelling."HOT!!!HOTT!!!! Now I know why so many people were saying it was so hot. I hadn't imagined this at all!"

The heat was literally burning into my soles, the faster I ran, the quicker the heat tore through my toes.

"Faster, Beatrice, faster! The faster you reach, the faster you rest!!!" My feet screamed.

Must. go . faster. Pain..

I was still leading, but all that was in my head was pain, pain pain pain PAIN.

Winning? What's that?

I could barely concentrate on where I was running, all that I thought about was the scorching flame that were consuming my feet bit by bit.

I....must...finish....

I couldn't think anymore. I forgot to say 'UP' to Se Yieng, our faithful fourth runner. I barely saw where I placed the baton. I could barely think about anything but -

Something red flashed in the Sun, on it's way to the ground.
The baton.

I couldn't think. My hand instinctively went down, grabbed it and put it into Se Yieng's waiting hand.

Something so crucial, that people would normally groan at while watching, something so BIG -
bur barely registered in my mind.

I stumbled over to the grassy part of the field. Must....sit.....down.....Faster....

I fell to my butt, my teeth gritted, my hands clenched and gripping the grass on the field like they were going to save my life. The soles of my feet were going to fall off any moment.

"Pain.. pain.." was all that I could mutter.

But no tears came. No surprise. Pain, so what? Your own fault, for not wearing shoes to ru-

"Se Yieng!" A voice suddenly said. Who was it? Oh, me.

"Who won? How did red house do? What place we got?" I heard myself asking anxiously, nervously.

The comforting bodies around me hushed me, saying that my feet were alright, I was going to be fine-

The baton. The baton! THE BATON! I DROPPED THE BATON!

Something that I couldn't understand why so many people did, it was so simple, so easy, just passing a hollow tube into the hands of somebody else..

Or rather, passing on the hope and expectations to emerge triumphant unto the next person, who in turn was going to prove whether the hopes will stand or will fall.

And I had dropped it.

The salty stream started flowing freely down my cheeks- I had let my house down, I had let my house captain down, I had let my faithful teammates down, they - who had done nothing wrong at all, I had let my friends down. The people who were constantly there, ever supporting me. I had let people - who I knew were banking on me to go further - down. Down, down, down.

I gave into the emotions of being the one who let down others.

Most of all, I had let myself down.

As I let myself be smothered by my friends who were trying to hush me - Lee Yuin's "breath in, breath out", Diane's "You okay or not?", Wen Min's "Beat, don't worry okay", Yee Fung's "Beeaaaaat", Justin's "Beat, don't crylah", the St Johns, Brenda's extremely worried face.......
(please do let me know if i left your name out, because I'm in a rush to finish this post, so I'm just typing anything that comes to mind..hold on. not like anyone's going to read this anyway. It's just going to be me, myself and I. HOHOHO. Anyway. just let me know, kay, now- back to story)

I felt anguished, dismayed, almost distraught. Yet at the same time so touched and basking in the love that my friends shared.

Until I caught a glimpse of a watch.

12.45 pm.

The numbers jumped out at me.

What?

What happened to 'definitely'?

I looked towards the sky and was blinded by the rays of light emanating from the Sun which was directly above my head.

I looked at my toes - now red and burnt - I saw the blood slowly seeping out from the gigantic circle beneath my big toe, where the skin already exposed the raw meat.

And cried.

2009-05-02T21:40:00.000-07:00

This is great. Take a moment to read it; it will make your day!
>
A wealthy man and his son loved to collect rare works of art.
They had everything in their collection, from Picasso to Raphael.
They would often sit together and admire the great works of art..

When the Vietnam conflict broke out, the son went to war.
He was very courageous and died in battle while rescuing another soldier.
The father was notified and grieved deeply for his only son.

About a month later, just before Christmas,there was a knock at the door.
A young man stood at the door with a large package in his hands.

He said, 'Sir, you don't know me, but I am the soldier for whom your son gave his life. He saved many lives that day, and he was carrying me to safety when a bullet struck him in the heart and he died instantly. He often talked about you, and your love for art.' The young man held out this package. 'I know this isn't much. I'm not really a great artist, but I think your son would have wanted you to have this.'

The father opened the package.
It was a portrait of his son, painted by the young man.
He stared in awe at the way the soldier had captured the personality of his son in the painting.
The father was so drawn to the eyes that his own eyes welled up with tears. He thanked the young man and offered to pay him for the picture.
'Oh, no sir, I could never repay what your son did for me. It's a gift.'

The father hung the portrait over his mantle. Every time visitors came to his home he took them to see the portrait of his son before he showed them any of the other great works he had collected.

The man died a few months later. There was to be a great auction of his paintings. Many influential people gathered, excited over seeing the great paintings and having an opportunity to purchase one for their collection.

On the platform sat the painting of the son. The auctioneer pounded his gavel.
'We will start the bidding with this picture of the son. Who will bid for this picture?'

There was silence.

Then a voicein the back of the room shouted, 'We want to see the famous paintings. Skip this one.'

But the auctioneer persisted. 'Will somebody bid for this painting? Who will start the bidding? $100, $200?'

Another voice angrily. 'We didn't come to see this painting. We came to see the Van Gogh's, the Rembrandts. Get on with the real bids!'

But still the auctioneer continued. 'The son! The son! Who'll take the son?'

Finally, a voice came from the very back of the room.. It was the longtime gardener of the man and his son. 'I'll give $10 for the painting..' Being a poor man, it was all he could afford.

'We have $10, who will bid $20?'

'Give it to him for $10. Let's see the masters.'
The crowd was becoming angry..

They didn't want the picture of the son.
They wanted the more worthy investments for their collections.
The auctioneer pounded the gavel. 'Going once, twice, SOLD for $10!'
A man sitting on the second row shouted, 'Now let's get on with the collection!'

The auctioneer laid down his gavel. 'I'm sorry, the auction is over.'
'What about the paintings?'

'I am sorry. When I was called to conduct this auction, I was told of a secret stipulation in the will. I was not allowed to reveal that stipulation until this time. Only the painting of the son would be auctioned. Whoever bought that painting would inherit the entire estate, including the paintings.'

"The man who took the son gets everything!"

God gave His son 2,000 years ago to die on the cross. Much like the auctioneer, His message today is: 'The son, the son, who'll take the son?'
Because, you see, whoever takes the Son gets everything.

FOR GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD HE GAVE HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON, WHO SO EVER BELIEVETH, SHALL HAVE ETERNAL LIFE

...THAT'S LOVE.

keep smiling :D

elated. at last.

2009-04-22T20:30:00.000-07:00

memories :)

tokyo 2008

i miss

at last..

can eat :)

loves.

god bless senior msss gimrama team.

although some may not deserve it.

God bless you.

awesome friday

2009-04-11T02:34:00.000-07:00

sorry for not updating for freeeaaking long time :)
and since so many people are blogging in almost-perfect english, i pun nak cuba lah.
so let's see how this post turns out.

anyway, Good Friday.
Friday the 10th.

I didn't go to school! *BIG GRIN*
don't worry mrs tay, i didn't ponteng.
due to training.

omigoshsothefreakingexhaustingitellyouuuuuu.

It started at about 8.30, finished at 11.30am, then I got ready to go to school.

I went for choir, CF, musical practice, then went home at 3.30 to prepare for tuition.
It was 4.58pm. I was in the car about 100 metres away from tuition when my phone began ringing like a crazy mango.

"BEAAAAT!!! We need you here at netball!!!"
It was Lee Yuin, one of the only bfs who can can actually start a phone conversation with me by deafening me first. Besides Ah-Lyn. Seriously.

So I skipped tuition, went for inter-school prefect games netball because they were 2 players short. *tsk rushan and diane tsk ffk-ers tsk* :D We got 2nd, lost to U4 in the finals.

It was really fun ,though. Seeing Sharon Rose Roberts attemting to balance on 1 leg to shoot, seeing the freaking accurate Tracey Lovett shoot again and again into the small little ring, seeing the equally tall Brynn Lovett jumpin out of nowhere to grab the ball, seeing Su Yin again (from debate), seeing U4's cute Centre, Izzatie(if not mistaken) attempting to drown U12's Centre in the pool of water on the field, seeing Filla Dalila shooting again and again, seeing Diana complain about the scary WA of U4(Su Yin. lol.) , seeing Usha and Sofeana doing their best to protect our side, seeing the shouting bf racing here and there trying to get us to score.

And of course, listening to Sharon's cries of "DON'T SHOOOOOOOOT!!!" across the field.
Farniness.

It was good to see the twins after so long. They were the first people I saw the second I walked into the USJ 8. These two hot, sexy, lanky, Eurasian twins. If you hug them , you won't be able to see anything except their shirt.

Or it may be just me.

Oh, PLUS they're great people. Freaking awesome.

Anyway, enough of them. I bet you're tired listening about them already.

I was really scared I would be pooped out like the day before when I went for gymrama training after playing basketball. Needless to say, coach was yelling at me, my calves were throbbing like.. mad mangoes, I could barely walk.

Fortunately, I made it through. I reached home after netball at about 7, training started at about 8 so it was kinda okay because we still had the warming up bit to do.
But coach was so freaking mad at (not me :D)(forgotten who) and training ended at...
11.
whaddacrapp.

Freaking exhausted.

"Dang, Saturday training 9am." was all that was echoing in my foolish little head as I climbed into bed.

But now..
the REAL reason why GOOD FRIDAYS are indeed, well, GOOD.

Initially, I was going to school because of CF's Court Case. But due to a teenyweeny,um, error, I ended up staying for choir..I don't know what difference it'll make anyway. The *insert appropriate name* dislikes me enough already.

Practice was terrible, as usual.

So I ended up running like a mad mango from the hall all the way to the Geography Room on the top floor of Block A. It didn't help that the room was right at the end of the corridor, either.

When I reached, the session was already closing.
But what I witnessed was more than enough to make up for missing the entire thing.

...Pastor Andy was asking for people who wanted to accept Jesus Christ into their heart to raise up their hands...
I squeezed my eyes shut.
Eunice took a deep breath.

And then I saw it.
Starting from the middle of the room, hands began popping up 'bagai cendawan tumbuh selepas hujan'.
And I am not exaggerating.
Almost half to 3/4 of the people present had their hands raised up.

My heart was jumping with joy and elation and everything else.

Indeed a sight to behold.

Eunice was tearing.
(I shall innocently fail to realise whether there were tears on my cheeks.)

Then Pastor Andy said, "I hope you all don't mind, but could all of you who raised your hands up just now to please stand up."

Almost everyone stood up, except for a small gang of people who were those CF orang-orang.

Among the faces of those who stood up that I instantly realised were Nick, Jian, Kai Ning.
(I hope you guys don't mind this.)

Praise the Lord.

Current statistics:
38 people accepted Christ, excluding the 27 who rededicated their lives unto Jesus.

This is the reason why Good Fridays aren't just good.
They're awesome.

Loves,

beatbeat.

off to shna's.

Aiieek.shna!mana rumah lu??!!

mssm quatic meet

2009-03-24T23:37:00.001-07:00

will update more soon.

loves

hmmm...

2009-03-15T06:11:00.000-07:00

"Those who can laugh without cause have either found the true meaning of happiness or have gone stark raving mad."~ Norm Papernick

"Man is fond of counting his troubles, but he does not count his joys. If he counted them up as he ought to, he would see that every lot has enough happiness provided for it."
~ Fyodor Dostoevsky

"The foolish man seeks happiness in the distance; the wise grows it under his feet."~ James Openheim

"Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn't know you left open."~ John Barrymore

"Well," said Pooh, "what I like best," and then he had to stop and think. Because although Eating Honey was a very good thing to do, there was a moment just before you began to eat it which was better than when you were, but he didn't know what it was called."~ A.A. Milne

"There are two things to aim at in life: first, to get what you want; and after that, to enjoy it. Only the wisest of mankind achieve the second."~ Logan Pearsall Smith

"Pleasure is spread through the earthIn stray gifts to be claimed by whoever shall find."~ William Wordsworth

"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have."~ Frederick Keonig

“Happiness is like a butterfly which, when pursued, is always beyond our grasp, but, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you.” ~ Nathaniel Hawthorne

"There is no cosmetic for beauty like happiness."~ Lady Blessington

"Real elation is when you feel you could touch a star without standing on tiptoe."~ Doug Larson

“Every individual has a place to fill in the world and is important in some respect whether he chooses to be so or not.”~Nathaniel Hawthorne

"So long as we can lose any happiness, we possess some."~ Booth Tarkington

"One joy scatters a hundred griefs."~ Chinese Proverb

"My advice to you is not to inquire why or whither, but just enjoy your ice cream while it's on your plate."~ Thornton Wilder

"Be happy. It's one way of being wise."~ Colette

"Happiness always looks small while you hold it in your hands, but let it go, and you learn at once how big and precious it is."~ Maxim Gorky

"Three grand essentials to happiness in this life are something to do, something to love, and something to hope for."~ Joseph Addison

"Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things."~ Robert Brault

"In order to have great happiness you have to have great pain and unhappiness - otherwise how would you know when you're happy?"~ Leslie Caron

"On the whole, the happiest people seem to be those who have no particular cause for being happy except that they are so."~ William R. Inge

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony."~ Mahatma Gandhi

"When you're really happy, the birds chirp and the sun shines even on cold dark winter nights - and flowers will bloom on a barren land."~ Grey Livingston

"Real happiness is cheap enough, yet how dearly we pay for its counterfeit."~ Hosea Ballou

"If you ever find happiness by hunting for it, you will find it, as the old woman did her lost spectacles, safe on her own nose all the time. ~Josh Billings

"The pursuit of happiness is a most ridiculous phrase: if you pursue happiness you'll never find it."~ C.P. Snow

"Our greatest glory is not in never falling but in rising every time we fall. "~Confucius

"Every artist was first an amateur." ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

"The only abnormality is the incapacity to love."~Anais Nin

"You must be the change you wish to see in the world."~Mahatma Ghandi

"You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life." ~Winston Churchill

"What a grand thing, to be loved What a grander thing still, to love" ~Victor Hugo

Crap. I'm short and fat.

Welcome back, SexyBeast!!!

Holdiays here we come,people! :D

ciao!

God Bless guys!!!

hmm.. well this is an emopost. i mean, emo commercial break post, whichever you prefer.

2009-03-05T04:33:00.000-08:00

*Commercial break!*

I'm sad.
Sorry.

Anyway, thanks guys..
err..refer cbox, you nosy people.

*Back to the show!*(Omigosh this is so lame)

Have you ever really wondered
What does it mean to have faith in yourself?

What is it?
What does it do to you?

Everybody says to believe in yourself.
Everybody says to trust yourself.

But how do you achieve that state of mind?
So strong, so firm , so solid that even a walking Taipei 101 can't bash through it?

I , I
think it all begins by believing in God and surrendering all you have unto him.
(Sorry atheists)
You may think : that's like relying on somebody else, depending on somebody else, when now you're supposed to be building faith in yourself. But have you ever stopped to think , that when we surrender all we have unto God, it means that we have that enormous leap of faith, that we have that gargantuan trust in ourselves which grows. And grows. And grows and grows and grows...

When your crush rejects you,
God will be there.
When your friends turn away from you,
God will be there.
When you fail again and again,
God will be there.
When nobody else loves you,
God will be there.

God doesn't fail anybody, even through the bleakest of times.
Even when you have nothing left, God will be there, right at your side, guiding you, loving you more than you have ever deserved.
God will be there to guide you into trusting and believing in yourself.

Having that rock solid faith in yourself will prevent you from straying too far away from the right path. You will dare to dream, dare to reach for the stars.

You will learn to push past the limits that you have set for yourself. Push beyond the expectations that everyone around you has set for you. Stretch your capabilities past the maximum because with God they can stretch on forever.

Then
you will be able to embrace your dream.
All you have to do
is to reach out
and grab it.

God Bless~

beeaaaaaaaat.

Watermelons.........and eggs

2009-02-14T14:52:00.001-08:00

These are truly incredible. You'll love the cool watermelons,but you'll be blown away by the eggs!

These egg shells were cut with a high intensity precision Laser Beam. This gives a very good idea of what can be achieved with a Laser Beam. This gives you an idea what laser surgery performed on one's eye is all about. Is it any wonder how one's vision can be improved in just a few moments? Science is sometimes wonderful, and it's still on the frontier of gaining new knowledge. Incredible what can be done with an eggshell and a laser beam.

'A true friend is someone who knows you're a good egg even if you're a little cracked.'

Happiness?

2009-01-31T02:43:00.000-08:00

Of expectations and formulas for happiness

2009-01-31T01:24:00.000-08:00

Something that i read recently (to be more accurate, 1 minute ago) 'stimulated' my very empty thinking cap.

You know the way we hear a lot of

Don't expect anything so that you won't be disappointed.

And this is what I thought was really cool :) :-

To tell you the truth I think that quote is utter bullshit.And I'll tell you why.We NEED expectation in our daily lives.Without expectation,there can be no excitement.Without excitement,everybody will just be jaded and emotionless.Why not you just splash grey paint on the world and drown yourself in morphine,since you want to be so void of emotion.

-jotted by the one and only Farhan

tellmewhentowoah.blogspot.com

Okay, it's no that bad, yeah.

But think about it. How on earth do you expect one to live without expectations?

Even the daft-est person expects something, just that they expect daft things, of course.

I think it's pretty impossible to live trans expectations. How do you live, not expecting something? It'll be like living in an empty nutshell.. a small, black, damp, mind-cramping one, at that.

If you don't expect anything, it'll be akin to not dreaming, not hoping for something to happen. Even the most faithful people expect something .

Now that we're in the heat of this topic, the unquotable quote above , is in other words, one of the feeble attempts to come up with a formula in the pursuit of happiness. Indirectly.

But some 'ingenious' fellows came up with a so-called formulae for happiness, and made it public. Ever heard of it?

Pleasure + engagement + meaning = happiness.
This is one of them.

Another one :

Happiness = P + (5xE) + (3xH)

P stands for Personal Characteristics, including outlook on life, adaptability and resilience.
E stands for Existence and relates to health, financial stability and friendships.
And H represents Higher Order needs, and covers self-esteem, expectations, ambitions and sense of humour.
Sound complicated?

Apparently the formula was worked out by psychologists after interviews with more than 1,000 people.

So do you still belive in the formulas that scientists and researchers have came up with?

There are many more, by the way. Not only these two.

It's like they 'chi bao tai de kong'

(direct translation: too much free time after having their meal)

Now, back to the expectations thing.

So I don't think the quote should go: "Don't expect anything-"

more like:

"Lower your expectations-"
But then that won't be right anymore. Because if you lower your expectations, this means that you already know your initial 'level' of expectation. So you'll still be disappointed if the expected result doesn't come out because in your subconscious mind, you'll still be clinging on to the first expectation!
So what is the formula of happiness?
In my opinion-as if it weren't clear already- is that there simply isn't one.

Most people probably don't know what happiness is, they think happiness is perhaps having lots of money or a big car, or a big house. But people who have all these things are not necessarily happier than people who just enjoy their life.

We tend to be very obsessed with what is wrong, what is missing and what we have not got, rather than focusing on what we want and getting it. It would be nice to just enjoy your life, because life is a bit short.

Pete Cohen, who came up with the mathematics-like equation above(the PEH one), said:

Four in ten men said sex made them happy, and three in ten said a victory by a favourite sports team.
For seven in ten women happiness was related to being with family, and one in four said losing weight.
Romance featured higher for men than women. So did a pay rise and a hobby they enjoyed.
Women were more likely to cite sunny weather.

So does this mean we can come up with a formula with this
result?

C.P Snow once said:

The pursuit of happiness is a most ridiculous phrase:if you pursue happiness,
you'll never find it.

We all can be happy in a heartbeat if we want to. Period.

Or rather,

If you want to be happy,be.
-Leo Tolstoy
And..
Happiness is never stopping to think if you are.
So even if happiness forgets you for a bit, never completely forget about it.

God Bless You~

Now, I'll seat back, go finish that bertimbun-timbun truckloads of homework,

and hope that people actually read this thing. :

INDEBTED TO A SAVIOUR (part 3)

2009-01-30T08:55:00.000-08:00

The orthopaedic surgeon diagnosed me with having a severe muscle sprain and that my hip and thigh bone were slightly out of position. They were supposed to fit perfectly into each other, but they had pulled apart a little. He said I had to be out for a year. I was aghast. This killed my chances of taking part in the Nationals anymore! I was upset, I was depressed. I refused to talk to anybody, unless if it was absolutely necessary. I was too angry, too sad, too furious, too dejected to focus on anything because now the melancholy had taken over. I had let everyone down.

Most of all, I had let myself down.

***

I have came a long way since then. I suffered from the injury in September but by December, I was approached by my current teacher-I mean, coach to attend light training under her since she offered to coach me. Talk about a speedy recovery. She was a good friend of my mother’s best friend, so she found out soon enough that I had no intention of resuming training with my previous coach. I was still refusing to talk to anyone at that point and everyone, myself included, was quite shocked I had given her the chance to compromise.

But I never regretted that decision. My current tea- I mean, coach was the one who tapped my potential and talent to the maximum. She slowly guided me back into becoming the person I used to be, the person whom everyone missed. The girl who everyone loved.

*****

I stood beaming from ear to ear on the podium after receiving my gold medals, all six of them. I was now waiting to be awarded the huge gold trophy. If my aura was a colour, it would have to be yellow and gold, the colours of exuberance. If you stood close enough, you would be able to hear my heart shouting with glee and elation. The delight of finally getting here was too overwhelming, I could even burst into tears of jubilance now.

“And the National Finals Champion is….”

I closed my eyes to savour the moment.

In that blink of an eye, I was praying and giving thanks to the only person who was on my mind.

Thank you, teacher.

I mean, coach.

BeatriceLowWeiJin.

it's copyrighted ya know.

by me, du-uh.

*grins*

God Bless....You~

INDEBTED TO A SAVIOUR (part 2)

2009-01-30T08:29:00.000-08:00

“Tingg!”
The beep sounded, signaling for me to begin my routine. With a deft kick of my legs, the ball flew high up, giving me time to lower myself to the ground before catching it and rolling over again to do a ‘walkover to flexion’.(It is a move whereby my hands are placed on the ground and I kick my legs over in a split position. When the first leg touches the ground, the other leg is fixed in position to form 180 degrees and my hands are gently lifted a little from the floor. The position when my hands are not touching the floor, my legs in the split position, and my back arched, is known as a flexion.)

I went through my ball routine with ease and fluidity,just like how I had envisioned it. Then came my favourite part. I was to balance on one leg and go all the way down till my body was parallel with the floor and my legs form a straight vertical line. As I lowered my body, I could feel my muscles tightening to give me the balance I needed.

Then suddenly I heard a buckling noise from the joint where my thigh bone meets my hip bone. I felt a sharp jolt of pain shoot right up my leg. Before I knew it, I found myself lying on the floor, my body covering the leg protectively. Then the tears came. As the salty tears streamed down my cheeks, smudging the mascara and eyeliner I had applied, I thought about how agonizing it was to lie there without anyone to help me up from my pitiful, crumpled state I was on the carpet.

Couldn’t anyone see me lying here?

Why is the music still playing? Why can’t they just turn it off?

The melodious tune which I loved and was supposed to be dancing to, was now burning into my ears. I never ever wanted to hear it again. I thought about how life had been, how much time I had sacrificed to commit myself to the sport, all resulting in getting injured on the competition day right in the middle of the routine? I could barely hear the tinkle of narcissistic laughter from my archrivals. With me out, they would go on to claim the medals that I had been training so hard for.

As I lay there, I gave in to the immense feeling that was covering me like a thick, woolen blanket. I gave in to the anguish of letting such an opportunity slip away from me, allowing the sorrow and despair to overwhelm me as I buried my head in my arms and cried and cried till there was no more tears left.

Carpe diem? CARPE DIEM !

2009-01-29T04:20:00.000-08:00

Carpe diem
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Meaning
Usually translated from the Latin as 'seize the day', or sometimes as 'enjoy the day, pluck the day when it is ripe'.
Origin
The origin source for the Latin phrase is Horace - in Odes Book I:

Dum loquimur, fugerit invida Aetas: carpe diem, quam minimum credula postero

which translates as:

While we're talking, envious time is fleeing: seize the day,
put no trust in the
future.

cool eh?

Sometimes we ponder upon the past.

Or wonder what'll take place in the future.

When in reality all we have to do is stay focused on the present!

No, I am not rejecting the idea of dreams and aspirations nor am I saying that you should never revisit your past.

It's just that the present is just so much more crucial, don't you think?

Peace.

INDEBTED TO A SAVIOUR (part 1)

2009-01-29T00:44:00.000-08:00

SO.

the following is contains fiction (like duhh) and is partially the truth.

and if you take hints well, usually the truth is not as good as it seems.

[I submitted it for some competition along with a whole gang of cool people who think writing is fun, plus they read it, so you better keep your hands off my work. HAH.]

Sweat seeped through the black attire covering my body.

My lethargic body sank to the floor out of sheer exhaustion, my right hand still
clutching my red satin ribbon. As I inhaled sharply, all I smelt was the stench that was slowly enveloping me - the stink of sweat. I could see the imprint of sweat which was slowly soaking the black cotton on my body. Urgh. Gross.

“Bea! Get your backside of the carpet! Your throws – all of them are not accurate enough! They don’t fall where their supposed to!”

“Tired lah, teacher..”

“What is this? ‘Tired’? What is tired? As long as your keep throwing as disastrously as just now, you won’t even be able to qualify for the Nationals like you did the last time! You cannot throw your ribbon where it ought to go, then how the heck are you going to finish your routine on time with the music?!”

“And.. I am NOT a teacher!”

Colour flooded my cheeks as I cringed in embarressment. It was one thing to get yelled at, it was a different thing altogether to get yelled at in front of curious onlookers and younger gymnasts. I sighed and mumbled a dreary ‘Yes, coach’ in reply. I am a not a teacher! , she says. I am a coach!!

Hey there. You have just had the privilege of witnessing my rhythmic gymnastics teacher- I mean, coach, howl at me like a shrieking banshee. She is not always like that, my coach, it is just that today is simply not one of her better days. Total that up with a terrible performance on my part, and you will have a very, very grumpy coach.

“Love the sport.
Breathe the sport. When you dance, dance all your love out. Show your love to
the world!”

Every time the thought of giving up enters my head, I cast it
away, with my coach’s voice ringing in my mind.

I took up this sport in Primary 6. After watching the elegance and beauty of the rhythmic gymnasts during the 2004 Athens Olympics, I was hooked. I was intrigued by their poise and agility. The utter charm, grace and cool that each of them seemed to possess and never failed to demonstrate each time they appeared on the screen. So off I went to begin classes. I was not bad, actually, considering that 12 is a rather late age to start rhythmic gymnastics. In fact, I was one of the best in class. Back then, I was under a different coach, one who did not favour gymnasts who were on the fat side (i.e. me), so I had to train on my own at home in order to be up to par with the rest.

*****

fLASHBACK

I took my place on the carpet, my shiny pink ball in between my ankles. I stood straight, took a deep breath, and arched my back, causing the neat bun on my head to gently touch my butt. My hands were placed above my body, resembling doves searching for freedom. I was ready.

2009-01-27T20:51:00.000-08:00

Breakfast at McDonald's

This is a good story and is true, please read it all the way through until the end!

I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed my college degree.

The last class I had to take was Sociology.

The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish every human being had been graced with.

Her last project of the term was called, 'Smile.'

The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document their reactions.

I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say hello anyway. So I thought this would be a piece of cake.

Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son, and I went out to McDonald's one crisp March morning.

It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son.

We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden everyone around us began to back away, and then
even my husband did.

I did not move an inch... an overwhelming feeling of panic welled up inside me as I turned to see why they had moved.

As I turned around I smelled a horrible 'dirty body' smell, and there standing behind me were two poor homeless men.

As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he was 'smiling'.

His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light as he searched for acceptance.

He said, 'Good day' as he counted the few coins he had been clutching.

The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his friend. I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue-eyed gentleman was his salvation.

I held my tears as I stood there with them.

The young lady at the counter asked him what they wanted.

He said, 'Coffee is all Miss' because that was all they could afford. (If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they had to buy something. He just wanted to be warm).

Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes.

That is when I noticed all eyes in the restaurant were set on me, judging my every action.

I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter to give me two more breakfast meals on a separate tray.

I then walked around the corner to the table that the men had chosen as a resting spot. I put the tray on the table and laid my hand on the blue-eyed gentleman's cold hand.

He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes, and said, 'Thank you.'

I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, 'I did not do this for you. God is here working through me to give you hope.'

I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband and son. When I sat down my husband smiled at me and said, 'That is why God gave you to me, Honey, to give me hope.'

We held hands for a moment and at that time, we knew that only because of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give.

We are not church goers, but we are believers.

That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love.

I returned to college, on the last evening of class, with this story in hand.

I turned in 'my project' and the instructor read it.

Then she looked up at me and said, 'Can I share this?'

I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class.

She began to read and that is when I knew that we as human beings and being part of God share this need to heal people and to be healed.

In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald's, my son, instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom on the last night I spent as a college student.

I graduated with one of the biggest lessons I would ever learn:

UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE.

Much love and compassion is sent to each and every person who may read this and learn how to

LOVE PEOPLE AND USE THINGS - NOT LOVE THINGS AND USE PEOPLE.

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Next.(Credits to Johanna for sending this to me)

IF SOMEONE HAD A GUN HELD IN FRONT OF YOUR FACE AND ASKED YOU IF YOU BELIEVED IN GOD, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? SAY NO AND FEEL ASHAMED THE REST OF YOUR LIFE?OR SAY YES, I DO, AND DIE STANDING UP FOR GOD?.

Note: This is a true article that was printed in a southern newspaper less then a year ago .TAKE A DEEP BREATH BEFORE READING

THIS

There was an atheist couple who had a child.
The couple never told their daughter anything about the Lord.
One night when the little girl was 5 years old, the parents fought with each other and the dad shot the Mom, right in front of the child.
Then, the dad shot himself.
The little girl watched it all.
She then was sent to a foster home.
The foster mother was a Christian and took the child to church.
On the first day of Sunday School, the foster mother told the teacher that the girl had never heard of Jesus, and to have patience with her.
The teacher held up a picture of Jesus and said, 'Does anyone know who this is?'
The little girl said,

'I do, that's the man who was holding me the night my parents died.'

***

Funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell.

Funny how we believe what the newspapers say, but question what the Bible says.

Funny how everyone wants to go to heaven provided they do not have to believe, think, say, or do anything the Bible says. (Or is it scary?)

Funny how someone can say 'I believe in God' but still follow Satan (who, by the way, also 'believes' in God).

Funny how you can send a thousand 'jokes' through e-mail and they spread like wildfire, but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing.

Funny how the lewd, crude, vulgar and obscene pass freely through cyberspace, but the public discussion of Jesus is suppressed in the school and workplace.

Funny how we can go to church for Christ on Sunday, but be an invisible Christian the rest of the week. (Are you laughing?)

Funny how I can be more worried about what other people think of me than what God thinks of me. (Are you thinking?)

Pass this on only if you mean it. Yes, I do Love God!

2009-01-18T08:33:00.000-08:00

Isn't it strange how a 10 ringgit bill seems like such a large amount when you donate it to church, but such a small amount when you go shopping?

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Isn't it strange how 2 hours seem so long when you're at church, and how short they seem when you're watching a good movie?

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Isn't it strange that you can't find a word to say when you're praying, but you have no trouble thinking what to talk about with a friend?

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Isn't it strange how difficult and boring it is to read one chapter of the Bible, but how easy it is to read 100 pages of a popular novel or stephenie meyer book?

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Isn't it strange how everyone wants front-row-tickets to concerts or games, but they do whatever is possible to sit at the last row in Church?

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Isn't it strange how we need to know about an event for Church 2-3 weeks before the day so we can include it in our agenda, but we can adjust it for other events in the last minute?

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Isn't it strange how difficult it is to learn a fact about God to share it with others, but how easy it is to learn, understand, extend and repeat gossip?

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Isn't it strange how we believe everything that magazines and newspapers say, but we question the words in the Bible?

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Isn't it strange how everyone wants a place in heaven, but they don't want to believe, do, or say anything to get there?

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IT'S STRANGE ISN'T IT?

God bless!

love,

beatbeat

.wendy jo.

feelings:nil.

2009-01-13T22:43:00.000-08:00

announcement (well, sort of)

2009-01-03T06:02:00.000-08:00

NEXT,

I am really happy with where I went just now. You don't need to know where. *evil laugh*

erm and when i was asked there earlier...

"You wanna thank God.. for anything?"

Don't ask me why i was asked this okay. The people who were there .. well, don't come to my blog so i think i can say this... they underestimated me A LOT. hahahahaXD not that i minded though :) you will see-lah the reason.. when the time comes 8)

to which i replied...

"Thank God....... (insert super long shy hesitation)........ for......... everything."

to everyone who was there just now, well, i really meant it.

(they don't even come here so i have no idea why i'm addressing this to them)

Simply because i couldn't really particularly pinpoint a particular happening to thank God for.

Even the word everything doesn't cover everything i thank God for.

That's about it.

Oh! I almost forgot :)

HAPPY SPARKLING BLESSED

NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!

Please don't ask why i put 'sparkling' there. It just seemed appropriate :D

God Bless.

loves,

beatbeat

sheer relief.

2008-12-30T19:14:00.000-08:00

this, my friends,
was how i got my fragile slip of paper,my results.

everyone was lining up in front of Pn Ros (actually crowding around the front would be more appropriate) while I, miss-overhelpful-girl-who-never-fails-to-get-myself-into-the-worst-spot-possible-in-the-end, was next to Pn Ros, helping with the distribution of magazines and nonsensical certificates. 8)
they ARE a bit nonsensical, you've got to admit :)
Smun was helping too, next to me, and so was Waiyi, on the other side.

Congrats to all the straight A peeps out there, by the way.
The first result slip I saw was Siao Lin's, followed by Rishe's ,Wei Li's and out of nowhere, Chin Win's. lmao. All straight As.Duh.
(Sorry about the others, it's not like I could change what Pn Ros was flipping through, right?)

And everyone knew that The SexyBeast got straight As lah.If you didn't see him, you would at least have heard him :)

Sorry about the others though, didn't really pay attention.

I was busy handling the certs especially

after the two evil witches *narrows eyes* ditched me after getting their results.hmph!

nvm,thank you to Grace, the superwoman who came to the rescue!!

I was like: Sheeshh. Nevermind lah. Take after everybody take lah.

Then suddenly a voice: Eh, tak mahu ke?
( It was Pn Ros )

and a slip dropped into my lap, along with that pakej paper thing for form 4.

With one quick glance, I scanned the paper, then chucked it on the chair next to me.
Why? Simple.

"Beat, my certs!"

Hahaha.
Enough to send me racing through the pile again for the umpteenth time in search of my dear classmates' certificates.

Well, yes, I did choose to help out, but I did not know about the certificates okay.

I assumed (that is a very big word)that i would only be giving out the magazines,

which would be a piece of cake ^^

And because of that, I didn't get the opportunity to even talk to or see my closer friends who weren't in my class cause when I came out, everyone went back deeeee. What the crap.

Everyone who got straight As out there, praise the Lord!!!

Those who didn't, praise the Lord as well!!
God doesn't make mistakes kay.Get that fact straight. :)

anyway, you still have spm, so don't worry so much now XD
(i CANNOT believe i am saying this)

ciaoz!

pictures from japan (might be) coming up.

Peace.

God Bless~

loves,

beatbeat

more outdated pics!

2008-12-29T02:20:00.000-08:00

thanks guys.

outdated news:

i turned 15 officially on the 18th of december!

i was in japan, entertaining little 2nd graders and amused elementary school teachers.

and eating chocolate banana cake which i baked with my younger foster sister, Ruri. :)

p.s. wanted to uplaod pictures from homestay today, but camera battery ran out halfway so maybe another time :)

p.p.s. i haven't charged it yet since the last night in tokyo ^^ (that explains why) :D

~GOD BLESS~

ALL THE BEST FOR TOMORROW!!

loves,

beatbeat

outdated pics :) (in random order)

2008-12-28T22:40:00.001-08:00

greetings from japan!!!!!!!!

2008-12-21T06:18:00.001-08:00

hihi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i`m in japan now, using my host father`s laptop.

i celebrated a very fulfilling 15th birthday!!!
this is the second year i am not with my family for my birthday..
last year was REALLY fun. lol. it was solo camp at OBS.
i was singing birthday song to myself. lmao. seriously.

this year was cool.
we baked the chocolate banana cake and fried tempura at home.
and i received a fleece(i think) jacket from my host parents, a seriously cute pencil case, 2 keychains and a necklace thingy from my host sisters.

i also got a heck load of manymanymany other cool stuff (not for my birthday lah)
(including sweets and chocolate!!!)
(hahahahaahahahaha)
(let`s laugh together)
(hahahahahahahhhhaha)
from manymanymany people i just met for like...2 days?! *grin*

well,
i reallyreally thank God for blessing me with such a wonderful host family who brought me everywhere and shared so many lasting memories with me.
If not for them, i have no idea how i would have survived here in this freezing,foreign country.
And i wouldn`t trade them with any other host families in the world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yup,that`s how much they mean to me ^^

Christmas is around the corner!!

Appreciate the family that the God has blessed you with ya guys!!

God never makes mistakes^^

Hai!Macam itu sajalah:)

Oyasumi nasai~~~

(getting into the japanese mood. lol)

God Bless You.

loves,

bea

God Bless You!!!

latest news!

2008-12-11T06:22:00.000-08:00

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I'M NOT GOING!!!!

*INSERT GREAT BIG SMILEY*

*INSERT ANOTHER GREAT GIGANTIC SMILEY*

*INSERT HUMONGOUS SMILEY*

*INSERT HUMONGOUSLY FANTASTICALLY GIGANTIC SMILEY*

god bless ya!

loves,

beatbeat

2008-12-06T05:34:00.000-08:00

Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love does not take pleasure in other people's sins but instead it delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

love...is a many splendid thing.love lifts us up where we belong.all we need is love....

true love. what comes to your mind immediately?

not necessarily anything to do with all that mushy lovey dovey relationships..

perhaps true love for your parents, siblings, friends?

true love is when you love someone or something with all your heart, your soul and your strength.

true love is when you are ever willing and ever ready to sacrifice anything-i mean, anything- just to keep your true love happy or to reach a particular goal in your life.

not many people realise though, something so powerful about love.

true love is the most powerful motivating force that drives you to suceed in life.

true love unlocks the door of true happiness.

everybody has love in their hearts.but the love is not there to stay.

love is only when you give it away.

true love is like the fundamental core, the basic to all the other aspects in life.

it leads you to think that the glass is half-full, not half-empty.

true love is like the roots of a tree, faith is like the trunk,and hope, persistence, belief,courage,determination are all branches growing from it.

with true love comes true happiness.

when you're happy, you smile.

your smile

is the only curve

that can straighten your problems

in your life.

GBU~

loves,

beatbeat

ps:sorry for being so philosophical :)

just wanted to share something that i really wanted to since quite a long time ago :)

outing with the SAKAI! / ABCJWLs :)

2008-12-02T00:02:00.000-08:00

winny.

jes see.

money-eyed me :)

wanted to go inside the toilet to take pictures, but charmaine said it was too small.

lmao

puan yeo.

the wu liao amanda.

and her shirt.

the quill and the ink. :)

our version of ink and parchment.

when amanda saw this, she wuliao-edly commented:

"hey!amanda and winny!"

omigosh what the crap.

when she saw this, amanda that is, she said:

"eh eh.. Hey O' James Bond!"

to which me and charmaine burst out laughing like the world's worst hyenas.

8)

charmaine taking a break from laughing to pose for picture.XD

amanda in search of something wu liao to comment.

in asian avenue....

.....still looking.....
*ish why cannot find one?!*

and.....she found it.

Now..

Definition of SAKAI!

Sexy

And

Kinda

Adorable

Idiots

(with the exclamation mark, since there are 6 of us)

ABCJWLs

(credits to Amanda yang sungguh wu liao who came up with this)

{Amanda, Beat, Charmaine, Jes, Winny, Vyenn}

Asian-Born-Chinese-Juniors-WuLiaos

(Juniors as in the grade we are in,

not as in that nonsense Super Junior boyband okay.)

Okay, now enough of that wu liao-ness

After like berpuluh-puluh hari spent with each other throughout training,

we decided to celebrate the end of this year's competition by watching.....

twilight!

and hang-kai-ing la of course... :)

twilight was awesome!!!!!

-saved as draft on 1st of december-

-posted today-

God Blessssssssss~

holiday villa gimrama competition

2008-12-01T02:56:00.001-08:00

jes, amanda yang hot, me yang sungguh retarded, charmaine yang ade banyak peminat.

After competition, waiting for results. :)
loves.
we kept each other entertained
throughout rigorous training
ever since SPM started till last saturday.

my sis wanna give birth. lol.

hui yin the bidan.

shaza the 'cheerleader'(penyokong).

lmao

me trying out the smiley thing on my camera.

zhiweiiiii yang cute.

jes yang retarded.

zhi wei and jes yang dua-dua pun mental.

ooops, this picture's a bit lost^^

these are from the s'gor inter-club last saturday.

this was what i meant in my last post about being toooo constant :)

heh.

yes. very constant indeed. lols.

All of us had great fun last last sunday!

Our session finished before lunch! Goodie!!

So we spent the rest of the day..... eating and talking and ss-ing :)

Sorry no pictures cos my mum disappeared with the camera during lunch . =]

Anyway,

Thank you God for giving me a medal in all the events i competed in :)

not to forget

yune-lyn sexaay

who wished me luck before competition :)

loves,

beatbeat

GBU<3

No gold,

(not trying to sound super duper righteous here)

but better than nothing, right?

and i am certainly not going to push for

anything more than what God has chosen to give me :)

Thank you God.

2008-11-30T23:11:00.000-08:00

runner-up:)

1st was a tiny sized girl who trains everyday .

( as in like, even today type of everyday. unlike me, who doesn't even have training after competitions except for the usual classes ^^)

and 3rd was Denise (not from my club) whose training regime is sort of like the first placed girl, except it's not everyday.. 3/4 times a week i think. and she's pretty :)

runner-up trophy

inside of the trophy

medal

3rd place for rope

medal/a bit of trophy for rope

trophy for rope

from left: shaza, beatbeat,winny,coach, charmaine, jes, shara, hui yinn.

same thing, without the board=]

team champs!

me in 2nd, the teeny weeny girl in 1st, Denise -3rd

the grade4 winners for team event (HVC in 3rd!)

random pic of the winners for the hoop event=]

winners of the rope event!

let's play spot the fattie!

*grins*

selangor saga inter-club competition! just over last saturday :)

returned with *ahem* my pride regained, if you understand what i mean.

*coughforafatgymnasti'mdoingpretty:)wellcough*

heeeheee:)

we competed in rope, ball and hoop.

i got 3rd in rope!! better then everyone expected:)

(first among my club peeps)

and.. i got 2nd for the individual overall all-around competition!!!

whee!!!

i fared the best among my club peeps...yayyy!!!

hiphip hooray for the fattie gymnast!!!!

when i went back, i told my dad that i was um downright-ly the fattest gymnast there.

100% guaranteed.

then he said: perhaps the judges prefer people their own size?

lols:D

sosososososo............. :)

i went back a veryveryvery superly happy happie girl =)

i certainly exceeded my own expectations!

and for once, it was great to be extremely constant in all my routines as otherwise, i wouldn't have got the silver in individual all-around :)

(for more info on this, refer to next post)

befor i sign off,

thank you God.. for everything you've blessed me with..everything.

gbu peepz!

p.s.next post is on our SAKAI!/ABCWLs outing cum celebration after two back-to-back competitions!!

hold on---that's the following one. i haven't posted about the first competition yet:)

loves,

beatbeat

camp!!

2008-11-09T03:31:00.000-08:00

alright.

before i begin, i'd like to say that i am so extremely sorry that i cannot find the freaking usb.

which in other words means that i cannot upload the pictures from last sunday.

sowieee:)

anyway,

i went for prefects' camp!!!!!!

those who went are liviing solid proof that it rocks!

*even sharon thinks so (i think), that's saying something*winks*

it was....

really great.

well perhaps it was due to the fact that all of us weren't really expecting much :)

before i start, i would like to say that i will TRY to give a good explaination of the entire camp

and i am not trying to name-drop in the following post, i am merely trying to fit everybody's name inside it so that they will be rightfully acknowledged where they are supposed to:)

and also bear in mind that this is a PERSONAL account, so what i have went through and what you have may differ.

day1

i found out that only 9 form3 prefects were going for camp:

rushan, denise, justin, nick, yuva, jzen,danial and.. syafaf.

and me 8)

when we were in the bus, i found out that the guy(Mr Lim) who was in charge of our camp was the one who organized the chee wen campfire as well!

the one that me, lyn, waiyi and sok kuan went to become facilitators for little kids.

and the one that earned us 50 bucks.

*grins*

we had a blast in the bus.

miss rushan was telling everybody who was willing to listen to her about.....

peter.

the hot guy from heroes :)

she suceeded in annoying Danish (crap, i forgot the spelling so i'll just stick to this) and De Ming

who were sitting behind us.

Tze Quan, too. She was sitting on the other side of the aisle.

During the ride to Tapah Resthouse, we actually had that normal round of everybody-come-in-front-and-introduce-yourself-and-talktalk-a-bit sort of thing.

But sorreee i can't remember what was said... except a couple of really lame jokes.

Which due to their lame-itivity, will not be posted here because it will otherwise lame-itise my blog which is already super duper lame.

As usual, there was not enough time blablablabla so less than half of us actually went up to talk.

When we finally reached the resthouse,

after we went used the humongous and freakishly clean toilets

which has a garden in the middle of it,

rushan and i went walking around.

Then we met Carmen and Sharon and we went to buy guavas!

The type that is cut up and put in plastic bags and eaten with the lidi.

Sharon was super generous with her money and treated us to the fresh fruits.

We then walked back to the bus where a couple of the form3 peeps were eating their crisps.

Being the ahemkindahem person i am, i stupidly passed my packet of fruits to Nick.

Which was obviously to let him have some, right???

Then few moments later, i asked Nick for the packet back.

"Hah?! I threw it away worh!"

blardy fella.

I only ate 3 pieces before he threw it away.

pfffft.

why he threw it away in the first place is beyond my imagination, as the packet was still reasonably full.

whatever-lah.

The trip from Tapah up to Cameron Highlands took 2 hours.

Prior to the ride, Mr Lim passed plastic bags around for those people who ..

.. you know.. *bwuekk*

yeah.

And would you believe what movie was played during our ride up?

A shitty movie.

With a nonsense (and gross) storyline and no ending.

A horror movie:Plane Dead.

It was so fantastically shitty, that i don't even want to blog about it because it is an utter waste of Internet space.

We reached Cameron without any *bwuekk* incidents happening, fortunately.

Guess what we had for dinner?

Steamboat!!!

For your information, i have never eaten steamboat before.

Please don't laugh.

hee :)

So this was a new, well, experience for me, i guess XD

The food wasn't thaaaat awesome, (the restaurant's Ferm Nyonya)but the people at my table all had fun, anyway :)

Danish,De Ming,Jzen,Yuva,Justin,Nick,Xiang Shan,Danial,Rushan and I

most certainly enjoyed it,

with the Danial-Justin antics and Danish-is-supposed-to-jaga-all-of-us jokes.

Prior to dinner, De Ming jokingly said ,

"Since we are going to sit in groups of ten, i want 2 guys, 8 girls."
(2 guys meaning himself and Danish.)

ROFLMAO.He got 2 girls and 8 guys.

So ladies and gentlemen, be careful what you wish for. *wink*

And when somebody burped so freakingfantabulously loud, we came up with the following theory:

'A fly just farted really loudly.Next to your mouth.'

Then we decided that flies were too small to fart so loudly and decided on dragonflies.

Just then, a FANTASTICALLYHUMONGOUS housefly flew in through the window, sending us into a paroxysm of laughter and shrieks. :)

-to be continued-

-i haven't even reached the part where we reach the apartments and i am already freaking lazy to type-

god bless,

beat

-zzzzzz

///sorry no further updates :(

2008-10-27T09:40:00.000-07:00

take care peepz
god bless ya
n don't get annoyed by people
who don't deserve that brain space
in your head.

may the Lord be with you!
-Boaz

2008-10-20T07:15:00.000-07:00

let's welcome these two very *ahemspecialahem* people...

to the wonderful world of blogging!

*drumroll*

emily the perasan-ted little girl

and

diane the other perasan-ted basketballer

!!!!
wheeee.......!

what would you think if you heard the following conversation?

****
A:eh, justin and shaun doing together is it?
B:don't know yet.
otherwise i do with justin lah.
C:who else then?
B:ah can lah. me, you and justin do together.
****

*the 'info' i.e. the 'plan' stated above might/might not have taken place okay. You are not required to know that. kekeke.

:)
don't worry.
nonono.... nothing of THAT SORT took place lah you otak kuning.
it was actually about..
well,
that dumbdumbdumbdumb talentime nonsense.

since you are such a busybody,
i'll just let you know who was who.
i think a was nick, b was miss di and c was miss em.

and by the way, not everything stated above is accurate :)
so it's up to you which part you want to believe. kekekeh XD

GOD BLESS YA LOADS!!

-stillindilemma-

pissed.

2008-10-18T08:48:00.000-07:00

/////EDIT/////

tagged by my non-blood-related-ahma

2008-09-30T18:29:00.000-07:00

here it goes.. :

What is his/her name?
yes, you guessed right.
it's...
May Eeeeeeeahma

heehee xDxD

How old is he/she?
same age as me :)
well, technically currently one year older, but that doesn't count XD
actually just pity her later make her sound more like ahma :)

Did he/she ever betrayed you before?
nope XD
and i certainly hope she will never ever
cos' otherwise i'll chop her up and feed it to the dogs
correction: i'll bash her up first, THEN only do the above :)

Do you love him/her?
TOTALLY :P

Is he/she your soulmate?
hmm.. NONO.
cannot stand living together with an ahma weih.. :)

What do you think about him/her?
one of the 38-est(sampat-est) ahma to exist

Would you give him/her a present?
i ALREADY DID. wakkakaka
now waiting for hers XD

Is he/she a liar?
neeeehheeee.. dun think so

Would you marry him/her?
imagine getting hitched to an ahma...?!

Be it that you're more famous than her, would you dump him/her?
if we're not together, how is it possible for me to dump her?
!!!

Tag 10 people you (kinda) care about
and they must answer these questions about you.
~brenn
~wai yi
~shiiiiiiing
~guo hao
~sue mun
~shaun(but i know he won't do it)so.. siaolin!!!
~jsssshhhhna
~liesl
~emily
~juliajuliajoooolia
~aD (aka mrs nick jonas XD)

astala vista
God loves us forever

2008-09-24T06:58:00.000-07:00

tagged by hawtie litengg

1. What is your relationship of you and her?
- knew her through choir.. on relatively good terms with each other,i guess..

2. Your 5 impressions towards her
hot,pretty,sensitive,tries her best in most stuff (i thinkXD),loves her close friends,appreciates what she has (i think oso XD)

3. The most memorable thing he has done for you
just by her mere existence..?

4. The most memorable thing he had said to you
nothing much.. we're non-verbal frens ahahaha.. hold on . dats not quite true.. heh. we do talk. but nothing much, as i've mentioned before this,can't you read?

5. If she becomes your lover, you will...
be bashed up/di'pulaukan' by somebody,condemned by the world/parents/teachers etc

6. If she becomes your enemy, you will...
she won't. that, i know for sure :)

7. If she becomes your lover, she has to improve on...
nothing much..

8. If she becomes your enemy, the reason is...
i just said that she will NOT become my enemy! ever! (hopefully XD)

9. The most desirable thing to do on her is..?
hmm.. spend more time together? desirable sounds so ...wrong! dunno lah..

10. The overall impression of her is...
awesome gal XD

11. How do you think people around you will feel about you ?
i have seriously no idea. wish i did though, but i don't read minds.

12. The character of you yourself is?
happy round exuberant person who doesn't really fit in anywhere - to myself okay, dunno what others think :) very random person as well..

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is ?
stewpid temper,tendency to be emo over stupid loci, inability to sit still, inability to get my humongous butt to go exercise.

14. The most ideal person you wanna be is?
dunnolarh.dun ask me. ask my future husband *grins*

15. For those people who care about you and like you, say something about them.
Awesome peepz i have <3

10 friends to tag
1)brenda-the utter sampatness we share together
2)may ee-ahma mmg sampat edi w/out me
3)wai yi-the cute medic
4)vanes-the hawt ice-skater
5)shauna-the one who always brings that net bag about :)
6)sue mun-the sweetness and kindness she radiates is unbeatable
7)nick ng-the orang puuuutih!
8)tagging ppl who i haven't seen in ages so..... Nadia Hong Lixian (hohoho i still rmbr ur full name)
9)another one...... Rachel Priya (the shortie (but loudie) on the block)
10)jwei!!!-my beloved cutie *i learn from the better one eh?*

Who is no.2 having a relationship with?
- nobody. she's available.
Is no.3 a male or a female ?
- female. see name oso noe is girl lahh.
If no.7 and no.10 were together, would it be a good thing?
-NO. he's in love with someone else and she's involved with someone else. a definite no-no.
How about no.5 and no.8 ?
Err..i dun think they know each other..
What is no.1 studying about?
-no idea.. NOT chinese la..thats all i know:)
Is no.4 single?
-nope.i see the proof of it everyday..
Say something about no.6.
-description already stated.oh well, for your sake, i'll copy-paste it again.
the sweetness and kindness she radiates is unbeatable.

*CHANGE MOOD*

sometimes i wonder: do i fit in?

in class, i belong neither here nor there.

in another class which i migrate to pretty much during all my free time,

well, i just said it was another class,right.

dunno lah.

everywhere or anything im involved in pun 'neither here nor there'. sad kan.

i ain't cool

but i ain't all quiet either.

ANYWAY,

LALEEEELOOOOOOOOO!!!!

~ASTALA VISTA HONAYY

2008-09-24T04:50:00.000-07:00

what BEATRICE LOW means

yes,i know im evil. love the make up <3

my eyes ain't big, they're ghostly.

my hair here kinda matches my personality, i guess. it's all over the place XD

camwhore attempt #1. *failed*(no attempt #2)

so what does it really mean?

(well, at least according to the test.)

You are full of energy.

You are spirited and boisterous.

You are bold and daring.

You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.

Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble.

You can have a pretty bad temper at times. (wakaka)

You are friendly, charming, and warm. (whoa!!!)

You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be

a little flaky and irresponsible.LOL.

But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. wow..sound damn chun XD

You have the classic "Type A" personality.You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations.

You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you.

You're very intense.You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.

You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.

XDXD

A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

(bwahahaha)

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.

hmm.. do they mean girls or guys?XD

(btw,fyi,not intending to do so!)

You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

bwahahaha!!!!it makes me sound like some powerful Queen or some sort!!!

*bangga bangga*

and i was just wondering..

not being emo or anything, but just doing some thinking..

have you ever wondered what your funeral will be like?

at that time, will you be married already?have kids already?

grandkids,perhaps?

but what if nobody turns up?

what if the people there are just there only cause' they're afraid that nobody will be there?

what if?

what if?

i don't know.

you don't know how it'd be like either.

so live life to the fullest.

you never know when it might end.

im seriously serious kay.

i ain't asking you to stop worrying,

but just live life to the max

so that you will never regret your actions...

*switch off serious,''beat,the-philosopher-of-life mode''*

LALALALALALALA

SO YOU GET MY POINT KAN? :)

beatbeat,

4ever and ever loving God.

God loves us forever!!!

astala vista babeeeeeeeeeess

soorreeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!

2008-09-23T08:02:00.000-07:00

hey peepz!

reli tremendously sorry haven't been updating in quite (heh) a while :)

it's not so much on the "i am so busy studying so i can't come online" nonsense,

as i distinctly recall chatting to my cousin around 11pm on the day before our beloved science paper and i hadn't studied yet..(i dead serious kay).. and basically coming online almost everyday.hee XD

anyway, i'm just really lazy to post.

and basically lazy to sign into blogger.

lalalalalalalalalalalalalala

yes, to the people who was wondering whether i was

emo-ing

during maths, you were kinda right. hehe. i got that bloody locus question wrong.

and now maybe you're saying that you got it wrong as well.

but, you got it wrong for the subjective part.

that, i'm pretty sure. coz NOBODY who is thinking in their right mind, will ever get the locus in the OBJECTIVE paper wrong. (unless you're really careless and all, but that's besides the point.)

now, you see, it wasn't the first time either.

so much for learning from mistakes.

i got the stupeeeeeed median wrong(yes,the objective paper) for MYE,

i got a freakin simple locus question wrong (yes, again objective paper) as well for the setara trials,

in fact it's so simple that when you image google 'simple locus questions' you won't be able to find anything simple at all. the simplest looked something like this

so, you get the basic idea.

HAIH.

anyway,

and don't worry,i'm not planning on how to get rid of myself.

i'm reading a book.to be precise, thi book::

the sisterhood of the traveling
pants

movie pun ada.. but i haven't go find yet :) YET.

The movie is based on the young adult book, The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants, by Anne Brashares. As four best friends spend their first summer apart from one another, they share a magical pair of jeans. Despite being of various shapes and sizes, each one of them fits perfectly into the pants. To keep in touch they pass these pants to each other as well as the adventures they are going through while apart.

that was copy-paste thing, so not my fault if it doesn't sound.. me.

it stars:

america ferrera

lazy to post pics .. sure got c b4 wan

blake lively (if you've seen recent pics she's HAWWT!)

nah preview below:

now,...alexis bedley

in the movie, she's supposed to be the effortless beauty kinda of girl...

preview oso below:

and... jenna boyd (she only appeared in the first one, i think.)

and she appeared in the movie when she was 12.. but now punya pic :

heh..

i only post the few hotter ones :)

or ,well,the ones i think are hot :)

and thinking about whether or not i should go to singapore next year.

haha..

btw, forgot to tell you :)

i got this

and kalau aku pergi, i'll be gone after christmas.

26th december.(boxing day weih?! singaporean MOE no life wan ah?!)

for 4 years.(includes a-levels)

not bragging or anything,but yeah.

stating the facts.

nanti you tanya banyak soalan pulak.

sooo,

should i go or should i not?

:)

b4 you get it, it's easy to say 'if i get oso not going lah.'if you don't get it, it's easier to say 'if i get oso not going lah.' but when you get it, you'll find it freaking hard to decide.

did someone just say that life is all about making choices ?

well, unfortunately, you are so pfffting right.

dilemma-ing,but still exuberant as ever (or so i hope),

beeeaaaaaatt!:)

loving God~

astala vista babes ~.^

have a supersupersuperdeeeeduper dayy!!!!

another taggie

2008-08-21T05:02:00.000-07:00

Six Things I'm Passionate About:
~Rhythmic gymnastics
~Good books
~Great music
~er-does laughter count? ehehXD
~sticking up for what i believe in C=
~colours

Six Things I Say Too Often:
=stupeeeeeeedd!!!!
=pfffffft.
=eh,keep quiet can or not?!
=ANYWAY...
=sorta,kinda
=omigOOOOsh

Six Books I've read(Recently):
+thanks for the memories~cecilia ahern
+nineteen minutes~jodi picoult
+our house~cathy woodman
+aquamarine and indigo
+geo reference book~~~if not completed yet still counts right?~~~
+another geo textbook~~~also not completed, barely 3pgs done~~~

Songs I Can Listen To Again and Again:
*indescribable(chris tomlin)
*hosanna(hillsong)
*take it all(hillsong)
*majesty(planet shakers)
*how great is our God(chris tomlin-i think)
*i'm going home(daughtry)

Things I Learnt In The Past Year:
#PMR year is Not honeymoon year,nor is form 4
#never sit down in a class during recess with the danger of pn ung strutting in on you doing so
#i still love gymrama although everyone thinks im unable to catch up with my other thinner pals and become overall champion like i did when i was in form 1 (hint: i was 5kg lighter)
#i look like a lot of people
#things are never quite what they seem
#it's cool to annoy the pants off others

Six people i tag:
$yune-lyn!! get a blog!!<--she's not counted as one of the 6
$ahma!! whee...
$bren-my dear
$li teng-terlalu panas untuk disentuh
$waie-wicked genius(maybe she won't be doing this till after PMR!study study!)jk k
$guo hao-ggp(greatgranpa)
$hmm..i want to choose someone who i haven't talked to for a long time..so.. Nadia

astala vista xoxo
weeeeeeeeeeeee

taggie

2008-08-20T06:45:00.001-07:00

Tagged By Li Teng!!!

RULE #1
People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves..

RULE #2
Tag 8 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
it mostly depends on how and why it happened so see first lorh..

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
peace :)

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
anyone with a nice butt XD

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
get a big house for my parents , sister and i to live in. and donate some to the needy blablabla(all the usual ppl)

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
eh best friends not only girl-girl ma.. if guy best friend then MIGHT happen but most probably won't la

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
BOTH...!? but everyone don't need to worry, Jesus loves you :)

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
uh..uh..i don't know.. never really experienced this before. heh X)

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
1stly,i won't go after attached ppl. but other wise obviously let go lorh.. if you like the person, you would do anything to make her/him happy

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
yup

10. What takes you down the fastest?
people who fail to realise who and what kind of person i actually am and think my attitude is somebody else's -does this make sense?

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
only time will tell..:P

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
God, family and friends

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
hot, pretty, very loyal to her loved ones and many more lah

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
uh.. i dunno ..poor is too harsh i think :)

15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
open my eyes XD

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
yep=)

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
i won't pick in the first place because it'll be confusing to be with somebody but in love with someone else and the someone you are with as well..

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
definitely.. but some wounds take time to heal, so yeah..

19. Would you suffer now and enjoy later or the opposite?
suffer now.. X)

20. List 8 people to tag
1. ahma
2. wai yi
3. vanes
4. tzi ying
5. fel
6. shaun
7. nadia
8. sue mun

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

wakakaka

2008-08-18T17:05:00.000-07:00

i was just surfing the net

when i found this:

"In middle school I had an English teacher who said that I would never be successful. I think back on little things like that. It's funny."

US swimming star Michael Phelps proves what children around the world know -

teachers can be wrong

- after winning a record-breaking eighth gold medal at a single Olympics, in the 4x100 metres medley relay.

BWAHAHAHA..

but then again, it's 'teachers CAN be wrong', not 'teachers are wrong'.

and then again, he's THE MICHAEL PHELPS.

so much for hopes of getting slimmer..ROFLMAO x)

oh well.. you can take the girl out of the food but you can't take the food out of the girl.

honestly, i'm not quite sure what that's supposed to mean. And hardly anyone reads my blog anyway so it doesn't quite matter ..heh..

signing off,

beeeaaat.

PraiseTheLordForEverything!

WEIGHTY WOES

2008-08-16T07:55:00.000-07:00

b4 i begin my rant,
as you can see,
i have changed my blog template.

and for some reason,
my cbox has disappeared.

maybe its due to my ignorance of some sort
or perhaps my lack of experience in this modern era technology thingy.

i must admit, this doesn't make much sense.

anyway, PAGING FOR
SAMANTHA CHEW SUE MUN!!!!!
If you happen to be reading my blog, can help me out? thanks a million hun!!

XDXD

SO,with that done,
i shall now proceed to the main news.

laleeloo..

4 weeks ago..

Coach was commenting on each one of us as we were warming up.

" This Charmaine ah, got the body got the height but wobbly. Amanda leh, flexible but not strong enough. That Rachel leh, vegetable. Jes See strong but not flexible enough." (something like that)

then,

"Our miss here (pointing to me) can do, but BIG-SIZED."

haha.
go on.
you can laugh all you want.

therefore,
during exam period

i lost 1kg!!!

weeeee!!!

erm..after putting on 1kg..heehee..

(+1kg-1kg=no changes)

way to go , beatrice.

yesterday...

trisha came to coach us because coach's mom passed away.(sadnye..)

anyway,she (trisha)was commenting on all of us.AGAIN.

no prizes for guessing what she said about me.
in fact, she went even further to mention

"It's true you know. The extra fat will affect your balances and a big butt will naturally pull you down."

oh well.
haih.

dieting tips anyone?

will (hopefully) update soon. (about weight loss)(keep your fingers crossed that it will happen)

trying to study for trials but due to the noise made by the Olympic channel on the TV downstairs somewhat failing to do so,
*beatbeat
~how great is our God~

1st tag (lol)

2008-07-14T03:48:00.000-07:00

he last person to tag you is?
may ee ahma

What relationship of you with him/her?
reasonably close

Your 5 impression towards him/her
38, veryvery 38, siaosiao wan, loves her man(uh,boy?) shooooorrrrrtttiiieee=)

The most memorable thing that he/she has done to you
uh lemme think lemme think
still thinking
still thinking
lol..maybe got la,just dat 4get edi..

The most memorable words that he/she has say to you
i love you ?LOL xD

If he/she becomes your lover, you will..
show her off to the world =.=" lolz

If he/she becomes your enemy, you will..
hmmm..very good question..
never talk to her again?(LOL joking ni k?)

If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on..
her 'vertically-challenged' problem!

If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is..
because she is too 38.lolz

The most desirable things to do for he/she is?
lol
write her a love letter?

The overall impression to he/her is..
a siao ahma

How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
uh,seriously no idea.ask them (: i ask no point wan coz even if there's smthg bad they wont say,i guess..

The character for you for yourself is?
sorry, i dun reli understand this question ^^

On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
not-punctualness, hot temper, etc(lol)

The most ideal person you want to be is?
I love the way I am ! (but couldnt my body be a bit more like jessica alba?)*grin*

For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them
i dunno who cares and likes me.lol. anyway i really do not want to hurt other peepz feelings,tahu?

now i'm supposed to tag 10 peeps..
erm.. iwud like to tag lynnedee.. but she doesn't have a blog, and AGAIN, i don't wan to hurt anyone's feelings by leaving them out of this,so i tag everybody who reads this tag! okay?
you better do it,otherwise you'll hurt my feelings,tau?

cheerios!

loves,
beatbeat
^^loving God^^

another one

2008-07-06T03:53:00.000-07:00

jess: (looking at my face) eh jie, your cheekbones quite high hor?

me: haha..

jess: eh that means if got high cheek bones that means got low cheek bones ah?

me: huh? = ="

jess: coz i read in the stclare's book..somebody said that i'd give anything to have her high cheek bones.. that means got low cheek bones la!

me: i dunno..

jess: i thought everybody's cheekbones same height one ma? underneath the eye ah..
if not what? same height with the nose ah?

LOL
loves,
beatbeat :)

kiddies...

2008-07-06T00:14:00.000-07:00

as all of you have most probably read saturday metro yesterday with the picture of our choir in it, you'd most probably know what i'm talking about..

Jess(my sis): jie, you know that your school malam amal in the newspaper?

Me: yup..

Jess:You saw the school choir picture or not?

Me:yea..

Jess:the one right by the side is Justin,right?

Me:yes..

Jess:in the middle the girl facing us is yee fung,right?

Me:yeah..

Jess:how do they pick the people to stand in front?

Me:usually by height..

Jess:that means Justin and Yee Fung are short ah?

Me:not really,they are usually around 2nd row punya height..

Jess:then why they stand in front?

Me:maybe because yee fung good at shaking (haha) her body that's why teacher pull her to the front..

Jess: that means she stand infront because she good at shaking la?

Me:yea.. something like that..

***'little kids say the darnest things'-have you ever heard of this phrase?

Jess:So that means Justin also good at shaking ah?

haha...
sorry Justin..
and yee fung as well..
hee..XD

here's to lil sisters!

loves,
beatbeat

p.s.went to aog for class 2day.learnt quite a lot of crucial stuff about God that i was never quite sure of before this.all glory unto God!

p.p.s.Coach said that Judge told her this: Beatrice is doing what she can,not doing her best. WHAT THE PFFFT. that is exactly what the whole world says about me. Just because i'm loud, i laugh a lot like a crazy maniac and because i'm larger,fatter and flabbier than the rest doesn't give ANYONE the right to say that.period.hmph.

p.p.p.s.I need to prioritise my activities and interests badly.Even Coach said that i am too thinly spread:)

BOY,OH BOY.

melodi by sheila majid and lin yu zhong (chipmunked version)

2008-07-05T05:32:00.000-07:00

hope you like it!

Sheila Majid:Kau Melodi Yang Indah,
Merusuti Jiwa,
Tanpamu Hidup ku tak bermakna.

Lin Yu Zhong:Duo mo shi zai de gan jue,
Wang zhe ni de lian
Zhi yi ke,
Wo dao le bei ren yi wang de yong yuan,

Sheila Majid:Pertemuan yang Tanpa Diduga,

Lin Yu Zhong:Xiang mi lu de ren zhao dao le hui jie de lu xian,

(Chorus)Sheila Majid:Engkau bak Lagu Dan aku bagai Irama,

Lin Yu Zhong:Bersatu Kita Merwarnai Hidup Bersama,

Sheila Majid:Tanpamu Hilanglah Nadi Kita Berdua,

Lin Yu Zhong:Menderita Tiada Haluan,

Lin Yu Zhong & Sheila Majid:Wo zai wo xin li zui dong ting de melodi

*Repeat*

Menderita Tiada Haluan,Wo zai Xin Li Zui Dong Ting De Melodi

must watch

FACING THE GIANTS!

A MOVIE ABOUT LOVE, HOPE, TRUST AND FAITH.

loves,
beatbeat

update!

2008-07-01T07:43:00.000-07:00

1st of July

A particular shortie's special day.

One who is bold, brave, loves his (ahem)love a lot, caring, sometimes emo until very teruk wan, and a superb friend.

Ladies and gentlemen

Boys and gurls

Presenting

the one and only

GAN JAY HAN

(SORRY NO PICS.. comp lagging lyk crazy)

if u wanna see this hot dude's pics, click the following link:

http://profiles.friendster.com/jayhann

haha..

HAPPY BURFDAY DUDE!

HOPE YOU LIKED THE PREZZIE FROM THE EIGHT OF US:

~sue mun

~shaun

~guo hao

~wai yi

~grace

~liesl

~li-jian

~moi!!

jayhan, all the things we do for you..

LOLOLOL .

loves,

beat=)

=all glory unto the king of kings, the lord of lords=

~p.s.was my performance for nothing?~

super random

2008-06-19T04:59:00.000-07:00

*flash*

Time:Last year, few days after the Mamma Mia Musical
Place:Guardhouse

emily: eh ,yee fung damn hot ah that time when she dance ballet during the musical..

james: yeala..but her forehead damn bald la..

beat:aiya.. her forehead bald like that still hot ma..

james:but if got fringe then hotter lorh..

beat:bald forehead pretty mah..

*awkward silence*
(if you don't remember how i look like, my forehead is completely hair-less and bare lol)

beat(in her mind): oh my goodness, what the heck ,i sound like a damn freaking perasan fella some more not like blessed with good looks one oh my gosh!

beat:(hurriedly) you know, like simone ah

emily:yeah..simone damn pretty..

beat:who else ah?um.. yee fung ah, i would say diane also but she go cut fringe already..,right James?

james: *turns brick red*

=+***+=

*flash*

time:recently
place:3I

yunelyn: eh, come and see.. look at timothy's eyes and william's eyes..

mayee: see what? see people's eyes for what?

yunelyn: stop talking so much la..come and see..

beat: hmm.. timothy's eyes more horny..haha..

mayee: yeah.. true true..

yunelyn:yala..you look at william's eyes more um innocent.. timothy's eyes ah.. er... not so innocent..

william:wth..*sweat*

timothy:(looks up at us, then resumes doing his work=no reaction)

=+***+=

*flash*

time:today
place:MPB,prefects' meeting

*insert narration

we were listening to candidates campaigning for various posts.Tze Quan's was A-W-E-S-O-M-E!! She was like quoting the Bible in her speech and her passion for God literally shone through her.. haha.. (don't know how the rest felt.. emily agreed with me though)

anyway, there was this form 6 guy that was campaigning;
as usual, he started off with his achievements etc..then he started talking about why we should vote for him etc.. when

candidate:oh ya, i forgot.. i was also in charge of telemarketing something something something something in the something something something somethiong. I forgot to mention just now when i was talking about my achievements and stuff.

*insert narration

sorry, really couldn't remember what it was okay.. damn freaking long lah..!and he was like so bangga.. haha.. anyway,after the first three words i burst into hysterical laughter so i couldn't really hear what he was saying anyway.. :)

*flash

time: all the while
place: anywhere

x(anybody):*says something funny*

beat: *laughs out really loud, head buried in arms, and saliva seeps out of mouth

*insert narration

what the crap...=='

*flash*

**love ya**
beatbeat
-You are the saviour of my soul! yeah!-
~lalala~

COME FOR CF RALLY YA!!!!!!!
ONCE A YEAR ONLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MUST-GRAB OPPORTUNITY!!
WHEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S GONNA BE GREEAAAAT!!

is this for real?

2008-06-18T08:52:00.000-07:00

CF RALLY IS THIS SATURDAY!!!
COME COME!!
-18 BUCKS W/O SHIRT
-SHIRT 20 BUCKS I TINK
SJKC CHEE WEN

MAKE SURE YOU'LL BE THERE!!!

:)

PD

2008-06-07T21:03:00.000-07:00

for miss emily yam :)

2008-05-26T07:38:00.000-07:00

heya!

my very 1st pics im posting on my blog..

most of them were taken during the l'oreal fashion show performance

enjoy!

pretty leaves :)
jes see+me

jes see+zhi wei+me

shi ning, zhi wei, me, jes see

4 of us

moi beloveds

my hair!!! just lyk pau kan?

sum more when our hair was being done,

we were lyk super hungry!

me, zhiwei ,peggy

dats all...

sry.. when i finally figure out how 2 use d usb cord den oni i go upload all d pics lah

till den, byeeeee xp :D

loves, beatbeat

=loving God=

heya

im doing dis 4 u, emily

be proud XD

and oso 4 myself la actually

these are the very 1st pictures being posted by meeeee :D

feelings

2008-05-26T03:46:00.000-07:00

feelings
by lanya morris

i feel so separated
lost in a whirlpool of feelings
struggling to find my way out
of a vortex of emotions

you think you know
you always think you know
what i am like

the person i am
the real one
is only shown
in certain places
most definitely not while i'm with you

i wear a mask everywhere

you think you know
what i am thinking
and confront me with words and opinions
so harsh
so sharp
so precise
that they could slice a flying bullet
neatly into half

i know you care for me
and sometimes
you do show it

otherwise
you treat me
like i'm a piece of unwanted garbage
a child that was never meant to be

i know
my ____ never loved me

when i was born
this were her words:
this child is sure to cause problems
(yi ding you wen ti)

and some people
who dont care for the unwanted trash like me
do not hesitate to reply the exact same words
again and again
like spoilt clockwork mouse

we are so close yet so far

and i'll never be able to shed my mask
when i'm with you
wherever i go

~beat~
loving God