for miss emily yam :)

heya!

my very 1st pics im posting on my blog..

most of them were taken during the l'oreal fashion show performance

enjoy!

pretty leaves :)
jes see+me

jes see+zhi wei+me

shi ning, zhi wei, me, jes see

4 of us

moi beloveds

my hair!!! just lyk pau kan?

sum more when our hair was being done,

we were lyk super hungry!

me, zhiwei ,peggy

dats all...

sry.. when i finally figure out how 2 use d usb cord den oni i go upload all d pics lah

till den, byeeeee xp :D

loves, beatbeat

=loving God=

heya

im doing dis 4 u, emily

be proud XD

and oso 4 myself la actually

these are the very 1st pictures being posted by meeeee :D

feelings

feelings
by lanya morris










i feel so separated
lost in a whirlpool of feelings
struggling to find my way out
of a vortex of emotions






you think you know
you always think you know
what i am like




the person i am
the real one
is only shown
in certain places
most definitely not while i'm with you




i wear a mask everywhere






you think you know
what i am thinking
and confront me with words and opinions
so harsh
so sharp
so precise
that they could slice a flying bullet
neatly into half











i know you care for me
and sometimes
you do show it




otherwise
you treat me
like i'm a piece of unwanted garbage
a child that was never meant to be





i know
my ____ never loved me


when i was born
this were her words:
this child is sure to cause problems
(yi ding you wen ti)







and some people
who dont care for the unwanted trash like me
do not hesitate to reply the exact same words
again and again
like spoilt clockwork mouse














we are so close yet so far











and i'll never be able to shed my mask
when i'm with you
wherever i go



























~beat~
loving God

i knew it

i knew it
i knew it
i knew it



why on earth

are you

so competitive?!













we all

exist for a

REASON.





you
exist

to compete against me..













emoing,
beat~loving god~








EVERYBODY
PLEASE PRAY FOR THE MYANMAR CYCLONE NARGIS AND CHINA SICHUAN EARTHQUAKE VICTIMS OKAY?

RIGHT NOW AS YOU ARE READING THIS, THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE OUT THERE ARE DYING ..

PLEASE DO PRAY REGARDLESS OF WHATSOEVER RELIGION YOU ARE KAY=)



THANK YOU!!

late reaction

MYE

IS

OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~SORRY FOR THE DELAYED REACTION~

loves,

beat

=loving god=

ramblings

hey

sorry for not updating for quite some time=)

anyway
it was art exam on thursday
our beloved and oh-so-sarcastic civics teacher
pn zunaidah
entered our class la

you see, my name starts with B
so i sit facing the science lab and art room

there are racks outside the science lab to put books right?
so
there were this two girls sitting right on top
(why le? dun ask me=))

one of them was wearing baju kurung and sitting like bersantai kat tepi pantai

well, the OTHER one
was, well,
er
sitting with her legs slightly apart
facing my beloved class(well actually not my class la facing 3H but you noe wat i mean, rite?)

and

she was wearing

a

PINAFORE.

LOLZ










scene:


pn zunaidah is collecting the artwork of 3G students after art exam




beat:pn zu,pn zu..

pn zunaidah:yes, what do you want?! bising some more i tolak your markah sivik ah..

beat:whatever lah teacher..
teacher , you see the girl outside there?sitting not like a girl some more..

pn zunaidah:yealah. people sit like that you go and see some more. not good, so dirty..(i did not see OK? even if i wanted to[why would i?], cannot see la from my point of view!)

beat:WHATEVER.

pn zunaidah:(resumes collecting art work, moving down the row towards the teacher's table)(and then, TURNS AND LOOKS AT THE GIRL SITTING ON THE SCIENCE LAB RACK)

beat: teacher, you ask us not to look, you yourself go and look... haih...






*and guess what was her reply?*








pn zunaidah:

i checking the colour only mah..



lmao..
sorry for being so long-winded=)








gtg now
(finish kerja kursus; i write the whole thing you noe?!)

muahz~


maybe post sumting again later=)





lalala~
beatbeat
-all the glory unto god-

my ex-best friend

My Ex-Best Friend

by Celestie Vaughn

we were always together

me and you

joined at the hips

like siamese twins

you always saved a seat for me

you always gave me a share of what you had

you always helped me out with whatever problems i faced

and i did the same towards you too

you were once my sole confider(dunno whether such a word exists)

my sister

whom i told everything

but soon

i slowly realised

you never told me anything

anything at all

you never shared with me

who you liked

who you thought was cool and who was not

who you thought

sang the best songs

you only told me

others' views

not your own

i found out

who you were crushing on

through your sibling

i still can

imagine her shock

*you're-her-best-friend-and-you-don't-know?!*

i still can imagine

the disappointment

that was clearly etched onto my face

feeling of being trusted

and loved

and appreciated

by a best friend

i never got to experience that

you used to shout to me

once you saw me

acknowledging my presence

your whole face lighting up

with the widest grin in the world

then

one day

i walked into class

late,as usual

and for once

i didn't have anywhere to sit

because you were with somebody else

someone who meant more to you

than i did

i asked you

whether the seat on the other side of your friend

was empty

but,no

it wasn't

because it was saved

for somebody

who was of greater importance to you

it was as if

an invisible hand

had entered the window

and grabbed hold of my heart

ceasing the function of every system in my body

after that

you don't even pretend to see me

you just walk straight pass me

like i'm part of the wall

an invisible being

whom nobody cares for

like the kind of boring flyer

that you would just carelessly toss aside

without a single glance

now

i know

that i never meant as much to you

as much as you did to me

alas

the trace of the bond

which held us together

fades away into nothingness

nobody who see us now

would even know

we were

the best of pals

the last faint trace

is there no longer

to the world

we are just

merely

acquaintances.

~lalala~

.:love God forever:.

lamelamelameXD

Scene:
In front of 3Ilmu; approximately 10.15am

Timothy:(walks up to the door of 3I)

Beatrice:(walks up to Timothy) Haha Timon, I'm taller than you!(walks away)

Timothy: (calls out) So what?You're flat.

Beatrice: (shouts back)So what?! You're flatter!(resists urge to punch Timothy and walks away before somebody winds up having a black eye)

End of scene













*PFFFT.








muahz~
beatbeat:.
(still studying for MYE)

heya...

hehe..

sorry for the RANT about hating sejarah the other day..

well..

some of them were kinda true..

but sejarah is actually not THAAAT BAD..XD

neways,
ciao for now...gtg finish geography


and i PROMISE
dat i'm going to figure out how to actually use this blog thing
after exams=)


and tell you how god blessed me=)






~lalala~
.:mango~lurver:.
*luvs god...forever*

history...ZZzzz..

me again.


history

is

making

me

sleep.

has anybody ever wondered WHY we need to study history?

hmm..

its such a meaningless subject ...

quoting pn lim
"sejarah dapat dijadikan iktibar supaya kesalahan yang telah di lakukan tidak akan diulang lagi.."

wo-ow...

we don't need to NOE their mistakes because we are lyk WAY smarter den those raja-raja and we do not EXPECT to be a RAJA someday.

how and in what way do we -ahem- APPLY it in our daily routines? by 'mencontohi tindakan bijaksana so-and-so supaya kedaulatan negeri terjamin?

PUH-LEEZ....

and our beloved tanah-tumpahnya-darahku is only 51 years old, for heavens sake.

entah nak belajar sejarah ape pun?!

take china for example:how old IS she? now THAT is what you call HISTORY.

conclusion:
M'sian students of today should not be 'diwajibkan' to take up history.
..maybe.. 100 years later or so.. when today is history, only then the education ministry has some real sejarah to talk about.






sorry again ..for having to listen the rantings of an examinee ..(trainer-trainee;examiner-?)


signing off----------8 CHAPTERS TO GO-------------------



beat=P

blogging::..

I HAVE JUST STARTED BLOGGING FOR DA VERY FIRST TIME IN MY 14 YRS AND 5 MTHS OF LIVING!

HEHE..i'm kinda not very computerish person

and i was influenced into thinking blogging was boring

lolz..now i noe better, i guessXD

i seriously have no idea why i suddenly decided to blog..

i guess it was because of the controversy in class the other day

whether blogging was a waste of time..

so i decided to come check it out...

it was also because i rant a lot...as you can see...

and also because

i talk about almost everything and anything under the sun! (you noe what i mean)

most unfortunately, i chose da wrongest moment in da whole history of peeps who choose things at the wrongest moment to create a blog.

i have history test-no,mid-year exam on wednesday, 13 loooooong chapters are coming out and i have only studied about-say-3 chapters?! and i haven't memorised any of my moral nilai's definisi yet.. well .. except for kepercayaan kpd tuhan but which donkey wont noe dat?!!!

and i have not started revision for any of my other subjects!!!

lucky dis time mum is not expecting so much from me dis time round..phew..

soriez..
gotta sign off now, hopefully managing to finish the 10 chapters--------------------------------------